Chapters (93)
- Cover
- Dedication
- Epigraph
- Prologue
- Chapter 1
- Chapter 2
- Chapter 3
- Chapter 4
- Chapter 5
- Chapter 6
- Chapter 7
- Chapter 8
- Chapter 9
- Chapter 10
- Chapter 11
- Chapter 12
- Chapter 13
- Chapter 14
- Chapter 15
- Chapter 16
- Chapter 17
- Chapter 18
- Chapter 19
- Chapter 20
- Chapter 21
- Chapter 22
- Chapter 23
- Chapter 24
- Chapter 25
- Chapter 26
- Chapter 27
- Chapter 28
- Chapter 29
- Chapter 30
- Chapter 31
- Chapter 32
- Chapter 33
- Chapter 34
- Chapter 35
- Chapter 36
- Chapter 37
- Chapter 38
- Chapter 39
- Chapter 40
- Chapter 41
- Chapter 42
- Chapter 43
- Chapter 44
- Chapter 45
- Chapter 46
- Chapter 47
- Chapter 48
- Chapter 49
- Chapter 50
- Chapter 51
- Chapter 52
- Chapter 53
- Chapter 54
- Chapter 55
- Chapter 56
- Chapter 57
- Chapter 58
- Chapter 59
- Chapter 60
- Chapter 61
- Chapter 62
- Chapter 63
- Chapter 64
- Chapter 65
- Chapter 66
- Chapter 67
- Chapter 68
- Chapter 69
- Chapter 70
- Chapter 71
- Chapter 72
- Chapter 73
- Chapter 74
- Chapter 75
- Chapter 76
- Chapter 77
- Chapter 78
- Chapter 79
- Chapter 80
- Chapter 81
- Chapter 82
- Chapter 83
- Chapter 84
- Chapter 85
- Acknowledgements
- About the Author
- Also by Charlotte Philby
- About the Publisher
‘Oh, come on, Tom. I saw you at the concert … Remember?’
He cackled then. ‘The concert! Of course, the concert you didn’t actually see because you were so late. Is that the concert you’re referring to? The concert you ran off from, to go back to work – to a job that means more to you than your family? That concert?’
‘Oh, fuck off, not all of us get to spend our day lording around between drop-off and pick-up, spending someone’s else’s money …’
He stood up then, leaning into her. ‘No, fuck you, Gabriela.’
He slammed his palm on the table and she saw a curtain twitch in one of the neighbouring houses.
For the first time in her life, she cowered away from him.
‘I mean, wow, you really have no idea why we were talking, do you? Not even an inkling?’
Tom’s eyes glistened and she felt herself lean backwards in her chair.
‘That woman is the mother of the girl who has been bullying our daughter so badly that most afternoons after school she shuts herself in her room and cries.’
He was whispering now, but with an intensity that lit his face. ‘That woman is the person I’ve been having hour-long conversations with on the phone, when I’m not pissing about, trying to work out how to help fix things because you’re so busy, so fucking stressed out, that I’m worried if I share this problem with you that you might break. The reason, Gabriela, that we were so involved in conversation is that our daughter is so stressed that I’m worried she is going to be irrevocably damaged at a time when she is also in mourning for her mother, who might as well be dead for the amount of attention she gives this family!’
His voice hummed with quiet rage, his face pulsing with it.
‘Why do you think I keep whisking the kids away at any given opportunity, subjecting them to endless bloody car journeys to my parents’, to Saoirse and Jim’s, to anywhere where we can actually breathe? You think that woman is the threat to our family, Gabriela? You think some mother from school is what is going to be the end of all this? You, Gabriela – your fucking job—’
He was laughing, his eyes full of rage. ‘You know what, I wish I was so simple! I wish I could go around shagging other women, that it was that easy. But you know the sad truth of all this, Gabriela, is that I could never do that to you. Never.’