Back A Double Life
Chapters (93)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. Prologue
  5. Chapter 1
  6. Chapter 2
  7. Chapter 3
  8. Chapter 4
  9. Chapter 5
  10. Chapter 6
  11. Chapter 7
  12. Chapter 8
  13. Chapter 9
  14. Chapter 10
  15. Chapter 11
  16. Chapter 12
  17. Chapter 13
  18. Chapter 14
  19. Chapter 15
  20. Chapter 16
  21. Chapter 17
  22. Chapter 18
  23. Chapter 19
  24. Chapter 20
  25. Chapter 21
  26. Chapter 22
  27. Chapter 23
  28. Chapter 24
  29. Chapter 25
  30. Chapter 26
  31. Chapter 27
  32. Chapter 28
  33. Chapter 29
  34. Chapter 30
  35. Chapter 31
  36. Chapter 32
  37. Chapter 33
  38. Chapter 34
  39. Chapter 35
  40. Chapter 36
  41. Chapter 37
  42. Chapter 38
  43. Chapter 39
  44. Chapter 40
  45. Chapter 41
  46. Chapter 42
  47. Chapter 43
  48. Chapter 44
  49. Chapter 45
  50. Chapter 46
  51. Chapter 47
  52. Chapter 48
  53. Chapter 49
  54. Chapter 50
  55. Chapter 51
  56. Chapter 52
  57. Chapter 53
  58. Chapter 54
  59. Chapter 55
  60. Chapter 56
  61. Chapter 57
  62. Chapter 58
  63. Chapter 59
  64. Chapter 60
  65. Chapter 61
  66. Chapter 62
  67. Chapter 63
  68. Chapter 64
  69. Chapter 65
  70. Chapter 66
  71. Chapter 67
  72. Chapter 68
  73. Chapter 69
  74. Chapter 70
  75. Chapter 71
  76. Chapter 72
  77. Chapter 73
  78. Chapter 74
  79. Chapter 75
  80. Chapter 76
  81. Chapter 77
  82. Chapter 78
  83. Chapter 79
  84. Chapter 80
  85. Chapter 81
  86. Chapter 82
  87. Chapter 83
  88. Chapter 84
  89. Chapter 85
  90. Acknowledgements
  91. About the Author
  92. Also by Charlotte Philby
  93. About the Publisher

‘I was speaking to Jim and it came up. They’re desperate to see the kids. And anyway, maybe Saoirse thinks you’re always busy …’

He lifted his paper as he said the final words, as if protecting himself from a potential shower of bullets. But for once she wasn’t on the attack.

Saoirse. Gabriela felt a twinge when she thought of her now.

Even before their bust-up on the evening of Sadie’s party, their lives had long since started to diverge. It was hard enough keeping up with friends who had children of the same age, who were running the same treadmill within a square mile of where they lived. Saoirse and Jim, on the other hand, were leading a child-free, seemingly untethered existence in rural Devon – and so it was natural that the weekly meet-ups with the woman she once considered her closest friend had slowly given way to monthly phone calls, fading to occasional dinners and then texts berating themselves for leaving it so long and promising to catch up soon. Just as soon as things settle down a bit.

And then, things were said that were impossible to come back from.

It made it easier, though, the increased distance between them, given everything that would follow. She could admit that much to herself now. Would the events that had unfolded ever have come to pass if Saoirse hadn’t moved away? If anyone could have seen through all of this and made Gabriela hold herself to account, it would have been Saoirse.

‘Next weekend?’ she said thoughtfully before interrupting herself. ‘Oh actually, I can’t. It’s Madeleine’s birthday party, and I can’t miss it. You go, take the kids. They’d love it.’

Even as she said it, she felt like a traitor. What kind of person willingly ignored their best friend?

Tom paused as if he wanted to say something more, but then he sighed. ‘OK, I’ll tell them.’

He was in the bath half an hour later when his phone rang in the pocket of his coat. Ordinarily, Gabriela would have ignored it, but the ringer was so loud that she pulled it out to silence the sound.

When she looked at the name flashing on the screen, something inside her made her answer.

‘Hello?’

‘Oh, sorry, I—’

‘Hi, Harriet,’ she said.

There was a pause the other end, then Harriet replied, lightening her voice.

‘Hey, Gabriela, good to hear you! Sorry to ring so late, only Millie was asking if Sadie could come over on the weekend and I …’

Her words petered out.

‘Right,’ Gabriela said, as Tom emerged at the top of the stairs in a towel.

‘Who is it?’

She looked up at him and spoke pointedly into the phone receiver, without letting go of his gaze. ‘Tom’s here now, Harriet. I’ll just pass you over.’