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Chapters (93)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. Prologue
  5. Chapter 1
  6. Chapter 2
  7. Chapter 3
  8. Chapter 4
  9. Chapter 5
  10. Chapter 6
  11. Chapter 7
  12. Chapter 8
  13. Chapter 9
  14. Chapter 10
  15. Chapter 11
  16. Chapter 12
  17. Chapter 13
  18. Chapter 14
  19. Chapter 15
  20. Chapter 16
  21. Chapter 17
  22. Chapter 18
  23. Chapter 19
  24. Chapter 20
  25. Chapter 21
  26. Chapter 22
  27. Chapter 23
  28. Chapter 24
  29. Chapter 25
  30. Chapter 26
  31. Chapter 27
  32. Chapter 28
  33. Chapter 29
  34. Chapter 30
  35. Chapter 31
  36. Chapter 32
  37. Chapter 33
  38. Chapter 34
  39. Chapter 35
  40. Chapter 36
  41. Chapter 37
  42. Chapter 38
  43. Chapter 39
  44. Chapter 40
  45. Chapter 41
  46. Chapter 42
  47. Chapter 43
  48. Chapter 44
  49. Chapter 45
  50. Chapter 46
  51. Chapter 47
  52. Chapter 48
  53. Chapter 49
  54. Chapter 50
  55. Chapter 51
  56. Chapter 52
  57. Chapter 53
  58. Chapter 54
  59. Chapter 55
  60. Chapter 56
  61. Chapter 57
  62. Chapter 58
  63. Chapter 59
  64. Chapter 60
  65. Chapter 61
  66. Chapter 62
  67. Chapter 63
  68. Chapter 64
  69. Chapter 65
  70. Chapter 66
  71. Chapter 67
  72. Chapter 68
  73. Chapter 69
  74. Chapter 70
  75. Chapter 71
  76. Chapter 72
  77. Chapter 73
  78. Chapter 74
  79. Chapter 75
  80. Chapter 76
  81. Chapter 77
  82. Chapter 78
  83. Chapter 79
  84. Chapter 80
  85. Chapter 81
  86. Chapter 82
  87. Chapter 83
  88. Chapter 84
  89. Chapter 85
  90. Acknowledgements
  91. About the Author
  92. Also by Charlotte Philby
  93. About the Publisher

‘I can’t do this weekend,’ she said, pausing. ‘I’m sorry. Look, I know I’ve been really distracted recently, there’s just been so much going on at work and I—’

‘It’s fine,’ he said, picking up his coat and walking towards the door. ‘I’m going for a drink. I’ll see you later.’

Over the next few days with Tom and the kids away, a stillness settled through the house. Without the constant jangle of family life, of slammed doors, suffocating silences, the constant demands for attention that were never met, the house rang with questions Gabriela struggled to answer. The main one was devastatingly simple: how long did she think she could carry on with this?

While she could hardly believe the house was really under watch from within, still she found herself rushing from one room to the next, haunted by the sense that she was being chased. As though running from a future that was inevitable as the grave.

By the time Tom and the kids returned on the Sunday, she was desperate to see them.

‘Gabriela?’

She heard the shaking of keys and then Tom’s voice through the front door as she lay upstairs on the bed with a book, trying to escape her own head. Leaping up, she walked quickly to the hall and down the stairs to where Tom was standing, a suitcase still in his right hand, the other hand propping open the front door.

‘Hey, love.’ He kissed her on the cheek and pulled her into a hug before turning to indicate their children, comatose in the back of the car.

‘When was the last time that happened?’ he said, and she struggled to remember. They would be six and four this year – so far from being babies, and yet where had that time gone? The thought struck her briefly as heartbreaking.

‘How was the journey?’

‘Oh, you know, deeply glamorous. Matilda and The BFG on loop, outbreaks of war from the back seat, occasional retching.’

‘I missed you,’ she said.

‘If you hold the front door, I’ll bring them in one at a time,’ he replied before stopping and turning to her, kissing her on the mouth. ‘I’ve missed you too.’

Lying awake one night, a few days later, she decided to tell him everything – to clear the air of all the lies swelling between them, the duplicity as destructive to her family as any threat Emsworth had mustered. Even if she couldn’t expect that Tom would know what to do, just the fact that he knew would infinitely lighten the burden.

She placed the memory of the photos firmly out of mind, telling herself that Emsworth was all talk. He could have pulled those images from anywhere; he could have found them online and printed them off to scare her with.