Chapters (65)
- Cover
- Praise for the previous work of
- Dedication
- Epigraph
- 24 April 2018
- Part 1: Subject
- 15 June 1968
- 20 June 1968
- July 1968
- 2 February 2018
- Part 2: Light
- 20 November 1970
- 20 November 1970
- 21 November 1970
- November 1970
- 19 February 2018
- Part 3: Focus
- 15 April 1977
- 18 April 1977
- 15 May 1977
- July 1977
- 26 February 2018
- 8 March 2018
- 8 March 2018
- Part 4: Distance
- 15 May 1979
- 15 May 1979
- 16 May 1979
- June 1979
- 29 March 2018
- 29 March 2018
- 27 March 2018
- Part 5: Movement
- 18 October 1981
- 10 April 2018
- 18 October 1981
- 10 April 2018
- 18 October 1981
- 10 April 2018
- 18 October 1981
- 10 April 2018
- 10 April 2018
- 18 October 1981
- 10 April 2018
- October 1981
- Part 6: Exposure
- July 1984
- 5 September 1984
- 24 April 2018
- 25 April 2018
- Part 7: Developing
- 26 April 2018
- Vee, in the lost place, 1984
- 26 April 2018
- Epilogue
- 5 February 2019
- Author’s Note
- Acknowledgements
- Letter from Author
- Stephanie Butland’s Readers’ Club
- For your Reading Group
- For discussion
- Select bibliography
- About the author
- Also by Stephanie Butland
The man who tutted at Leonie’s swearing earlier barks a sharp, ‘I say! That’s enough!’ Vee, turning to glance at his purpling, indignant face, feels something else within her fall into place, lock, make her stronger. She’s not just here to protest about the way women are portrayed. It’s about the whole damn world. The beauty queens only parade because the men in bow-ties want to look at them. The women who are with the men in bow-ties have been made to think that this is OK. No one here believes they are doing anything wrong. Everyone is brainwashed. And among the confusion and the shouting, under the disapproving gaze of the people who came here to watch the show, and the blank eyes of the television cameras, Veronica Moon gets it. Really, properly. Not in words, but in feelings. She might not know everything, but she understands. She unclips her camera lens cap, puts the viewfinder to her eye.
Shoved and shunted from the building with the other shouting protestors a few minutes later, Vee finds herself next to a grinning Leonie, and because she cannot express, exactly, what it is that she has felt, she blurts, ‘I love you.’ Leonie seems not to hear.
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Leonie drinks a lot, fast, as they stand in the street outside the Café de Paris two hours later. Hip-flasks filled with brandy and whisky are being passed from hand to hand. Vee sips – she likes the warmth the alcohol brings, but she wants to keep her wits about her, just in case she does get arrested. The police seem benign, good-humoured almost, chatting to some of the quieter protesters who are asking them about their wives, their sisters, talking about how beauty contests undermine the women in their lives. The police don’t appear to be taking them seriously, but you never know. Some of it might sink in.
Vee feels overwhelmed, still, by her sudden understanding of how much work there is to do. Feeling around in her handbag for her hanky, her fingers find instead her lipstick, and she pulls it out and throws it in the gutter. She’ll never wear makeup again.
Every time the protesters start to feel cold, or tired, more women arrive with more placards – ‘Women Are People Too’, ‘Women Demand Liberation’ – and the chanting finds new strength with new voices. There’s euphoria everywhere at the disruption the action at the Royal Albert Hall has caused; speculation about how many millions of people might have seen the protest on television. Hundreds of thousands, maybe. Vee can’t begin to imagine it. She can imagine Barry’s mother’s face, though.