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  1. Cover
  2. Praise for These Nameless Things
  3. Books by Shawn Smucker
  4. Title Page
  5. Copyright Page
  6. Dedication
  7. Epigraphs
  8. Contents
  9. Anytime to Three Months
  10. I’m Afraid Not
  11. The White-Haired Woman
  12. The Emptiness
  13. Looking for You
  14. Closer Than They Might Appear
  15. The First Drowning
  16. The Tea Party
  17. The Field
  18. My Own Flesh and Blood
  19. Crossing Over
  20. A Place in This World
  21. Leaving
  22. The Man in the Hotel
  23. Driving Away
  24. Gone Again
  25. No Trespassing
  26. Into Nysa
  27. No Cares in the World
  28. You Should Turn Around
  29. When Everything Started Happening
  30. An Unexpected Encounter
  31. Night Swimming
  32. Shirley
  33. The Woman at the Window
  34. What’s Real?
  35. The Question
  36. The End of Me
  37. She Went Under
  38. Desecrated
  39. The Carpet
  40. The Boat
  41. Sinking
  42. The Weight of Memory
  43. Photographs
  44. Was It You?
  45. A Wedding and a Ring
  46. Dreams and Open Windows
  47. New Developments
  48. The Door
  49. Going Under
  50. The Loss of You
  51. The Glassy Sea
  52. Following Her Down
  53. Something Beyond Us
  54. Let’s Not Leave Her Alone Anymore
  55. Too Many Secrets
  56. Heavy Things
  57. She’s Gone
  58. Our Future Spelled Out
  59. Screams at the Cabin
  60. So Close
  61. When You Arrive at the End, Keep Going
  62. It’s True
  63. The Other Side
  64. Reality
  65. Swimming Underwater
  66. Only the Deepest Pools Remain
  67. The Open Window
  68. When I Knew
  69. The Clouds Bear Down
  70. The Far Green Country
  71. Gone
  72. The Fly
  73. The Nesting Doll
  74. Two Months Later
  75. Floating Away
  76. Another mesmerizing story from Shawn Smucker
  77. Prologue
  78. Acknowledgments
  79. About the Author
  80. Back Ads
  81. Back Cover

Tom nods hesitantly. “Yes. Soon after you left, it did seem inexplicable what was going on. A few teenagers vanished. Another one was found in the lake. Drowned. And another. And after that, an elderly couple. Because they came so soon after Mary, when everyone was still going out to search the lake for her, it started to feel like there was something ominous going on.”

“But you don’t think so.”

“I think teenagers run away sometimes. We did, for a summer. I think accidents happen. There were a lot of people at the lake who had never spent much time around water, especially during the search for Mary, so it seemed expected that people who weren’t strong swimmers might fall in. I think Gerald Mills is one of the superstitious few who would like there to be a deeper story, some other reason for the failing of this small town.”

“Nysa is as empty as it looks?”

Tom nods. “It’s dying, Paul. Twenty years from now, I don’t know if there will be anyone left. Those disappearances were the beginning. They frightened people off. Since then, all the young people have left—it’s a town of geezers. When we’re all dead? I don’t know who will remain.”

So I am correct. My hope is crushed. What will I do with Pearl?

“I have a breakfast meeting in the morning,” Tom says, an obvious attempt at changing the subject. “My weekly catch-up with some friends in town. You’re welcome to join us.”

“That’s okay,” I say. “I think I’ll take a slow morning here.”

Tom stands up. “I should be home by ten. We can have lunch out on the boat.”

I stand too. “Thanks, Tom.” We both know I’m thanking him for more than a boat ride, for more than a promised lunch on the lake.

He nods, and the shadows dance around us, congealing as he makes his way from lantern to lantern, snuffing them out. I follow him inside.

It takes me a little while to get to your room—I get a bit lost, but then I see it. Your door is open slightly, and I press on it, peek inside. The only light on is an antique lamp with a green glass shade and a golden pull string. You are lying on the carpet at the far end of the room, almost under the table, sleeping on your side with a book close to your face. I walk across the room, and the carpet feels like thick moss under my feet. I can understand how you fell asleep on that luxurious floor.

The book beside you is the third one, the one you hadn’t yet read, and I lift it carefully and place it on the small table. I lift you even more carefully and carry you across the room. You seem both light and heavy, both floating and weighing me down. Your hair is loose around your face, and your eyes don’t open, not even when I half drop you onto the mattress. I take off your socks and adjust the pillow under your head, and you cuddle deeper into it. I pull the thick comforter up over your shoulders, take one last look around the room, decide not to close the blinds, and walk out.