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Contents ( 81)
  1. Cover
  2. Praise for These Nameless Things
  3. Books by Shawn Smucker
  4. Title Page
  5. Copyright Page
  6. Dedication
  7. Epigraphs
  8. Contents
  9. Anytime to Three Months
  10. I’m Afraid Not
  11. The White-Haired Woman
  12. The Emptiness
  13. Looking for You
  14. Closer Than They Might Appear
  15. The First Drowning
  16. The Tea Party
  17. The Field
  18. My Own Flesh and Blood
  19. Crossing Over
  20. A Place in This World
  21. Leaving
  22. The Man in the Hotel
  23. Driving Away
  24. Gone Again
  25. No Trespassing
  26. Into Nysa
  27. No Cares in the World
  28. You Should Turn Around
  29. When Everything Started Happening
  30. An Unexpected Encounter
  31. Night Swimming
  32. Shirley
  33. The Woman at the Window
  34. What’s Real?
  35. The Question
  36. The End of Me
  37. She Went Under
  38. Desecrated
  39. The Carpet
  40. The Boat
  41. Sinking
  42. The Weight of Memory
  43. Photographs
  44. Was It You?
  45. A Wedding and a Ring
  46. Dreams and Open Windows
  47. New Developments
  48. The Door
  49. Going Under
  50. The Loss of You
  51. The Glassy Sea
  52. Following Her Down
  53. Something Beyond Us
  54. Let’s Not Leave Her Alone Anymore
  55. Too Many Secrets
  56. Heavy Things
  57. She’s Gone
  58. Our Future Spelled Out
  59. Screams at the Cabin
  60. So Close
  61. When You Arrive at the End, Keep Going
  62. It’s True
  63. The Other Side
  64. Reality
  65. Swimming Underwater
  66. Only the Deepest Pools Remain
  67. The Open Window
  68. When I Knew
  69. The Clouds Bear Down
  70. The Far Green Country
  71. Gone
  72. The Fly
  73. The Nesting Doll
  74. Two Months Later
  75. Floating Away
  76. Another mesmerizing story from Shawn Smucker
  77. Prologue
  78. Acknowledgments
  79. About the Author
  80. Back Ads
  81. Back Cover

“Mary!”

But she wasn’t returning my cry. I ran up the stairs to the two small bedrooms.

We rarely slept in the bedrooms—they were mostly for storing our clothes for the summer and where we’d go to change, and they were normally too hot at night. More often than not, we slept on top of sleeping bags on the dock, or on the couch or floor of the living room.

I had not been in the girls’ bedroom very often, but when Mary let out another cry, I could tell that’s where she was.

“Paul!” she screamed, and I barged through the door, not sure what I would find. An attacker? A wild animal? Something worse? At first I didn’t find anything—only a dark room, the shadowy outline of two single beds, a window that didn’t let in any light.

“Mary?” I asked.

A whimpering made its way across the floor. Mary had tucked herself in the far corner of the room, behind one of the beds, and I moved quickly through the darkness, banging my knee on the bedpost, crawling over the mattress, reaching for her.

“What’s wrong?” I asked. “Mary, what’s going on?”

“There was a woman outside the window,” she whispered, and her eyes flashed in the dark. “The same woman I saw in the field at your house last fall.”

A chill raced along my spine. “Mary, we’re on the second floor.”

Her eyes remained wide open.

“How did you know it was her?” I asked.

She closed her eyes and leaned her head against the wall before whispering, “Paul, I feel like I’m losing my mind.”

“Tom!” I shouted, but he was already bursting into the room and turning on the light. “Tom,” I said again, “some strange woman is outside the house. Mary saw her through the window.”

Shirley’s mouth dropped open in horror, and she came across the room and tucked herself in the corner with Mary.

“Stay here,” I told them both. Tom and I took the steps down from the loft two at a time, turned the corner, and went out through the front door into the warm summer night.

One might think that being in the middle of nowhere meant silence, but it seemed like those lakeside summer nights were the noisiest places on earth. Crickets in the undergrowth and cicadas in the trees and other insects I couldn’t identify whirred and chirped and sang. Bullfrogs along the lake’s bank were bellowing, giving their loud assent. Occasionally, bats would swoop through the light, snagging gnats and moths and mosquitoes. When the breeze gathered and moved among the leaves, there was the sound of a thousand trees, their leaves green and fluid, rustling.

We did a quick walk around the house, and the night was still warm. We were both wiping the sweat from our eyes. When we didn’t see anyone, we continued up the lane, into the deepest shadows under the trees, night within night. I tried to walk quietly, but every so often my bare foot caught a rock in the driveway and sent it diving into the leafy underbrush.