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  1. Cover
  2. Praise for These Nameless Things
  3. Books by Shawn Smucker
  4. Title Page
  5. Copyright Page
  6. Dedication
  7. Epigraphs
  8. Contents
  9. Anytime to Three Months
  10. I’m Afraid Not
  11. The White-Haired Woman
  12. The Emptiness
  13. Looking for You
  14. Closer Than They Might Appear
  15. The First Drowning
  16. The Tea Party
  17. The Field
  18. My Own Flesh and Blood
  19. Crossing Over
  20. A Place in This World
  21. Leaving
  22. The Man in the Hotel
  23. Driving Away
  24. Gone Again
  25. No Trespassing
  26. Into Nysa
  27. No Cares in the World
  28. You Should Turn Around
  29. When Everything Started Happening
  30. An Unexpected Encounter
  31. Night Swimming
  32. Shirley
  33. The Woman at the Window
  34. What’s Real?
  35. The Question
  36. The End of Me
  37. She Went Under
  38. Desecrated
  39. The Carpet
  40. The Boat
  41. Sinking
  42. The Weight of Memory
  43. Photographs
  44. Was It You?
  45. A Wedding and a Ring
  46. Dreams and Open Windows
  47. New Developments
  48. The Door
  49. Going Under
  50. The Loss of You
  51. The Glassy Sea
  52. Following Her Down
  53. Something Beyond Us
  54. Let’s Not Leave Her Alone Anymore
  55. Too Many Secrets
  56. Heavy Things
  57. She’s Gone
  58. Our Future Spelled Out
  59. Screams at the Cabin
  60. So Close
  61. When You Arrive at the End, Keep Going
  62. It’s True
  63. The Other Side
  64. Reality
  65. Swimming Underwater
  66. Only the Deepest Pools Remain
  67. The Open Window
  68. When I Knew
  69. The Clouds Bear Down
  70. The Far Green Country
  71. Gone
  72. The Fly
  73. The Nesting Doll
  74. Two Months Later
  75. Floating Away
  76. Another mesmerizing story from Shawn Smucker
  77. Prologue
  78. Acknowledgments
  79. About the Author
  80. Back Ads
  81. Back Cover

As soon as I opened the door, I could tell something was different, Grampy. The air was humid, like on a cool summer day when a storm is coming. I stood there holding the doorknob, and it was slick in my hand, and smooth. I was staring down a dark hallway, but it was more like a narrow cave with a low ceiling—the passage was cut through rock, and hidden in the rough places were veins of something shiny. The floor was like smooth glass, but when I took a few steps forward I saw it wasn’t glass. It was water.

I started walking, and the farther I went, the deeper the water got. It was very gradual, so at first I didn’t feel it getting deeper, but it was. And the ceiling was getting lower. I walked all the way into that cold water until it was up to my waist. I started to get nervous that my flashlight would get wet, so by the time the water was up to my chest and the ceiling was down to my head, I found a kind of rocky shelf in the wall to place the flashlight.

Straight ahead and not that far in front of me, the ceiling came down low and met the water.

The only way forward was by going under.

I stood there for a while, so long that I started shivering.

When you arrive at the end, keep going.

Grampy, I was so scared. But I took a deep breath, and I went under.

It’s True

Tom knocks lightly on the door and peeks his head in. “Everyone okay?” he asks.

You nod. You already seem so much more clear-eyed than at any other point today.

Tom eases into the room, carrying a mug in each hand. “For the lady,” he murmurs, handing you a steaming mug of tea. “In case you’ve changed your mind. And for you, sir.”

I breathe in the mint smell rising. “Thanks, Tom.”

“I’m going to grab mine and come back. You don’t mind, do you? I think I’d like some company tonight.”

I can’t tell if he’s asking me or you, but I know what you’ll say. Your face is so white, framed as it is by your dark hair. Your kind eyes smile.

“Sure,” I say, trying not to let a lack of enthusiasm infiltrate my voice. “Join us.”

He leaves, pulling the door closed behind him. I can’t even bring myself to ask you what happened next in your story. Your skin is so pale it’s almost blue, so I reach over and tuck the blanket tighter around you. You take a sip of tea.

Pearl, your imagination has clearly gotten the best of you. I can’t even begin to imagine where all of these things have come from, all of these . . . I can’t call them lies, because you so clearly believe what you’re telling me. Untruths? Misrepresentations? I don’t know. Confusion? I feel a deep weariness setting in.