Chapters (64)
- Front Cover
- Title Page
- Copyright
- Contents
- Pronunciation Guide
- Prologue
- Part One
- One
- Two
- Three
- Four
- Five
- Six
- Seven
- Eight
- Nine
- Ten
- Eleven
- Twelve
- Thirteen
- Part Two
- Fourteen
- Fifteen
- Sixteen
- Seventeen
- Eighteen
- Nineteen
- Twenty
- Twenty-One
- Twenty-Two
- Twenty-Three
- Part Three
- Twenty-Four
- Twenty-Five
- Twenty-Six
- Twenty-Seven
- Twenty-Eight
- Twenty-Nine
- Thirty
- Thirty-One
- Thirty-Two
- Thirty-Three
- Thirty-Four
- Thirty-Five
- Part Four
- Thirty-Six
- Thirty-Seven
- Thirty-Eight
- Thirty-Nine
- Forty
- Forty-One
- Forty-Two
- Forty-Three
- Forty-Four
- Forty-Five
- Forty-Six
- Forty-Seven
- Epilogue
- Excerpt from The Sun and Its Shade
- The Night and Its Moon Playlist
- Acknowledgments
- About the Author
- Back Cover
It was true. She’d missed her more than she allowed herself to believe. She could never let it go, or forget, or move on. It was a memory too painful to explore. Nox’s face was one that conjured too much hurt, too much confusion. In the real world, Amaris had needed to seal the suction-cupped tentacles of her vicious emotions, clamping them into a locked safe inside of her in order to function. In some other, imagined world, the girls had successfully run away together and escaped into the forest. In that world, the Madame had never found them. There’d been no reevers, no matrons, and no distance to part them. In another world, they’d be in the same bed tonight instead of Amaris’s dreams.
Nox dragged a slow finger from Amaris’s forearm to her elbow, up her arm. The gentle scrape of her fingernail was hot and cold all at once, raising goose flesh on her arm and sending shivers down Amaris’s back. It caused her stomach to clench and her throat to constrict. Her breathing trembled, staggering as she exhaled. She was conflicted. Part of her wished Nox would stop, wished that she wouldn’t stoke the fire and exacerbate this unrequited want. The other part of her silently pleaded with her to continue.
The finger drew its path over her shoulder, tracing the figure along the lines of her neck, her jaw, and landing on her chin. Amaris’s heart rate increased as she stopped breathing. She’d watched Nox’s finger with a shy, confused anxiety at first as it had navigated between her wrist and elbow, but as it crept along the lines of her throat, she’d felt her eyes drift to a close and a soft sound, almost a moan, escape her lips. When the finger made it to the space beneath her chin, Nox had flexed her index finger inward, tucking a single knuckle beneath Amaris’s chin.
Amaris understood the intent and obeyed, opening her eyes once more. How could she feel so deliciously powerless in her own dream? Vulnerability and uncertainty consumed her with incomprehensible craving. Maybe it was that her subconscious knew that between the two of them, Nox would always be their leader. She knew the steps to the dance, and all Amaris wanted was to follow the music that only they heard.
Amaris looked up at Nox through hooded lashes. She willed herself to breathe as Nox lowered her body closer, but the reever couldn’t seem to remember how to summon air to her lungs. She’d forgotten how to inhale. Her lips parted as adrenaline surged through her. Her heart flitted like the pitter-patter of rain falling in one thousand places all at once as anticipation coursed through her.