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  1. Gillian McAllister
  2. Contents
  3. About the Author
  4. Prologue
  5. 1.
  6. Cathy
  7. 2.
  8. Joe
  9. 3.
  10. Cathy
  11. 4.
  12. Now
  13. 5.
  14. Then
  15. 6.
  16. Joe
  17. Part I
  18. 7.
  19. Joe
  20. 8.
  21. Now
  22. 9.
  23. Then
  24. 10.
  25. Lydia
  26. 11.
  27. Joe
  28. 12.
  29. Cathy
  30. 13.
  31. Now
  32. 14.
  33. Then
  34. 15.
  35. Cathy
  36. Part II
  37. 16.
  38. Joe
  39. 17.
  40. Now
  41. 18.
  42. Then
  43. 19.
  44. Joe
  45. 20.
  46. Joe
  47. 21.
  48. Now
  49. Part III
  50. 22.
  51. Then
  52. 23.
  53. Cathy
  54. 24.
  55. Joe
  56. 25.
  57. Joe
  58. 26.
  59. Now
  60. 27.
  61. Then
  62. 28.
  63. Lydia
  64. 29.
  65. Joe
  66. 30.
  67. Cathy
  68. 31.
  69. Lydia
  70. 32.
  71. Cathy
  72. 33.
  73. Joe
  74. 34.
  75. Cathy
  76. 35.
  77. Now
  78. 36.
  79. Then
  80. 37.
  81. Joe
  82. 38.
  83. Now
  84. 39.
  85. Then
  86. 40.
  87. Joe
  88. 41.
  89. Now
  90. 42.
  91. Then
  92. 43.
  93. Joe
  94. 44.
  95. Cathy
  96. 45.
  97. Lydia
  98. 46.
  99. Joe
  100. 47.
  101. Cathy
  102. 48.
  103. Now
  104. 49.
  105. Then
  106. Part IV
  107. 50.
  108. Joe
  109. 51.
  110. Cathy
  111. 52.
  112. Now
  113. 53.
  114. Then
  115. Part V
  116. 54.
  117. Joe
  118. 55.
  119. Cathy
  120. Part VI
  121. 56.
  122. Joe
  123. 57.
  124. Cathy
  125. 58.
  126. Now
  127. 59.
  128. Then
  129. 60.
  130. Joe
  131. 61.
  132. Cathy
  133. 62.
  134. Cathy
  135. 63.
  136. Joe
  137. 64.
  138. Cathy
  139. 65.
  140. Joe
  141. 66.
  142. Lydia
  143. 67.
  144. Joe
  145. Part VII
  146. 68.
  147. Joe
  148. 69.
  149. Now
  150. 70.
  151. Then
  152. 71.
  153. Cathy
  154. 72.
  155. Now
  156. 73.
  157. Then
  158. 74.
  159. Now
  160. Epilogue
  161. Acknowledgements
  162. Read more
  163. Read more
  164. Prologue
  165. THIS IS JUST THE BEGINNING
  166. Table of Contents

‘È stato mandato,’ Cathy says.

‘Sorry?’ Joe says.

‘That’s what I can make out, just here …’ Cathy says. She lifts the pieces to show him. Dried blood floats off it, a burgundy grainy sand, and they stare at it. Frannie’s cheeks flush. She stands and wets some toilet paper, wiping it up carefully from the bathroom tiles. Nobody looks closely at the smear of red on the tissue, old blood reinvigorated.

Joe is staring at the pieces of paper. ‘I don’t know what I’m looking at,’ he says. ‘We’ve done this once already. Let’s just forget it.’

‘Joe,’ Cathy says, while Frannie washes her hands. She cocks her head a second, listening out. Joe starts. Is that somebody on the stairs?

‘Look, it’s here,’ she says slowly to him. ‘You’re not being thick, don’t worry.’

‘I didn’t say I was,’ Joe says, though that is exactly what he thought. Cathy traces the words in front of him, looking down at the paper and then up at him, to check he has understood.

‘Okay – and?’ he says.

‘I don’t understand either,’ Frannie says reliably.

‘Well.’ Cathy stands and goes to the window, holding the documents in the light. Frannie catches Joe’s gaze and rolls her eyes. Joe gives a soft half-smile to his ally.

‘Joe?’ Lydia’s voice calls out in the corridor.

‘Shit,’ Joe mouths. ‘Be down in a bit,’ he shouts. He is met with silence. Lydia isn’t replying or moving. ‘Go down – I’ll be down soon.’ God, the last thing Lydia needs is this, the implosion of the closest thing she has to a family as an adult. She will refer to her upbringing casually now to him, but he was with her a few weeks ago, at her work summer party, when some distant lawyer enquired about where she’d grown up. Lydia had been vague and stiff, and had turned to him, sad eyes and shoulders, and said, ‘There is no way to bring up domestic abuse at a summer party without putting everyone on a downer.’ But then he’d watched as she deliberately calmed herself, got another drink, took off her shoes and danced with him, his Lydia. A beautiful flower that grew up through a crack in concrete.

‘Where is everyone?’ she says. He hears Paul say something illegible. Frannie’s gaze goes from indolent to alert, staring intently at the door.

‘Not sure.’

‘Okay, then,’ she says, her footsteps finally retreating.

‘I know what this is,’ Cathy says to Frannie and Joe. She goes back over to them, holding it out. ‘It’s a police document.’

‘I’ll be by the pool, with Paul, then,’ Lydia calls, from further away.

‘Okay,’ Joe shouts in a panic, though he feels bad.

Paul used to cry on walks with Joe, but only if they went at night. He couldn’t work it out. In the day, he seemed to love being walked around the country lanes, but in the night, screams. Joe tried different routes, warmer clothes. Until one day he followed Paul’s gaze and realized: he was terrified of the moon. The fucking moon! Joe had bought Paul a book all about what the moon was and read it to him, and eventually he’d clapped when he saw it, and Joe’s heart became a sunburst, the moon reflecting the light back to Paul, his nephew.