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Contents ( 166)
  1. Gillian McAllister
  2. Contents
  3. About the Author
  4. Prologue
  5. 1.
  6. Cathy
  7. 2.
  8. Joe
  9. 3.
  10. Cathy
  11. 4.
  12. Now
  13. 5.
  14. Then
  15. 6.
  16. Joe
  17. Part I
  18. 7.
  19. Joe
  20. 8.
  21. Now
  22. 9.
  23. Then
  24. 10.
  25. Lydia
  26. 11.
  27. Joe
  28. 12.
  29. Cathy
  30. 13.
  31. Now
  32. 14.
  33. Then
  34. 15.
  35. Cathy
  36. Part II
  37. 16.
  38. Joe
  39. 17.
  40. Now
  41. 18.
  42. Then
  43. 19.
  44. Joe
  45. 20.
  46. Joe
  47. 21.
  48. Now
  49. Part III
  50. 22.
  51. Then
  52. 23.
  53. Cathy
  54. 24.
  55. Joe
  56. 25.
  57. Joe
  58. 26.
  59. Now
  60. 27.
  61. Then
  62. 28.
  63. Lydia
  64. 29.
  65. Joe
  66. 30.
  67. Cathy
  68. 31.
  69. Lydia
  70. 32.
  71. Cathy
  72. 33.
  73. Joe
  74. 34.
  75. Cathy
  76. 35.
  77. Now
  78. 36.
  79. Then
  80. 37.
  81. Joe
  82. 38.
  83. Now
  84. 39.
  85. Then
  86. 40.
  87. Joe
  88. 41.
  89. Now
  90. 42.
  91. Then
  92. 43.
  93. Joe
  94. 44.
  95. Cathy
  96. 45.
  97. Lydia
  98. 46.
  99. Joe
  100. 47.
  101. Cathy
  102. 48.
  103. Now
  104. 49.
  105. Then
  106. Part IV
  107. 50.
  108. Joe
  109. 51.
  110. Cathy
  111. 52.
  112. Now
  113. 53.
  114. Then
  115. Part V
  116. 54.
  117. Joe
  118. 55.
  119. Cathy
  120. Part VI
  121. 56.
  122. Joe
  123. 57.
  124. Cathy
  125. 58.
  126. Now
  127. 59.
  128. Then
  129. 60.
  130. Joe
  131. 61.
  132. Cathy
  133. 62.
  134. Cathy
  135. 63.
  136. Joe
  137. 64.
  138. Cathy
  139. 65.
  140. Joe
  141. 66.
  142. Lydia
  143. 67.
  144. Joe
  145. Part VII
  146. 68.
  147. Joe
  148. 69.
  149. Now
  150. 70.
  151. Then
  152. 71.
  153. Cathy
  154. 72.
  155. Now
  156. 73.
  157. Then
  158. 74.
  159. Now
  160. Epilogue
  161. Acknowledgements
  162. Read more
  163. Read more
  164. Prologue
  165. THIS IS JUST THE BEGINNING
  166. Table of Contents

Joe arrives out back and lights a cigarette.

‘You’re a regular smoker now, then,’ Frannie says, avoiding the subject. ‘Just – like that.’

Joe rolls his eyes and doesn’t answer. He breathes smoke out of his nose in two distinct streams, then turns his gaze to Frannie. Something seems to pass between them. Cathy intercepts it, but isn’t sure what it means. She thinks of what Tom said: I hope they’re as loyal to you as you are to them, and something moves inside her.

‘What do you think’s happening?’ Joe asks softly. He directs his question to Cathy, who knows exactly what he’s referring to.

‘I don’t know. I don’t know.’ The BBC News coverage has stopped. They won’t google it. They’re in the dark.

Joe drags on his cigarette, looking out into the sun. ‘Guess we just need to wait,’ he says.

Cathy fills him in on what Evan said just now, and on what she thinks he meant last night, too. Joe lights a second cigarette. ‘What a fucking twat,’ he deadpans.

‘Hear, hear,’ Frannie says, and Joe smiles around the cigarette.

‘He’s going to ask for more,’ Cathy says. ‘Or he’s going to tell Mum. Or someone worse.’

‘You think?’ Joe says. The tip of the cigarette glows red, a warning sign. ‘Leave it with me.’ He goes back inside, leaving Frannie and Cathy alone.

Frannie begins picking at a sandwich. ‘Do you know what?’ she says softly, looking down into her lap.

‘What?’

‘I’m finding it harder and harder to keep this secret,’ she says. ‘Are you?’

‘Well, yeah.’ Cathy bites into her sandwich, squinting into the sun. The wind gusts her hair into her face, but she doesn’t mind. These things feel like mindful things that keep her in the now, sensations of nature, things she feels instinctively that one day she might miss.

‘Deb’s dropping by in a minute.’

‘Right,’ Cathy says.

‘I saw her last night. Left my purse.’

‘How is she?’ Cathy says conversationally.

Frannie says nothing, and Cathy moves her hair out of her eyes and looks closely at her sister. She has her bare legs crossed at the ankles in front of her. She’s wearing a rose-gold anklet with Paul’s name on it, white trainers and a strange expression on her face. As Cathy looks at her, Frannie brings a hand to shield her eyes and gazes back.

‘She’s fine,’ Frannie says. She stands as Deb approaches. She’s tall, over six feet, with a mouth that turns down at its sides attractively.

‘Oh, nice to see you,’ Deb says warmly to Cathy. She hands Frannie her black leather purse, bought from a Mulberry outlet store last winter for – apparently – a steal.

‘And you,’ Cathy says to Deb.

‘Did you have to Apple Pay your coffee?’ Deb says to Frannie. Cathy feels a pang in her stomach for this sort of intimacy. Of knowing someone so completely, their routines, what they like to do each morning.

‘I did!’ Frannie says. She looks at Deb and there’s a beat – just one, and that’s when Cathy knows. Something about the hesitation, their eye contact, the set of Frannie’s mouth, the way she swallows, just as she does when she’s feeling guilty.