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  1. Gillian McAllister
  2. Contents
  3. About the Author
  4. Prologue
  5. 1.
  6. Cathy
  7. 2.
  8. Joe
  9. 3.
  10. Cathy
  11. 4.
  12. Now
  13. 5.
  14. Then
  15. 6.
  16. Joe
  17. Part I
  18. 7.
  19. Joe
  20. 8.
  21. Now
  22. 9.
  23. Then
  24. 10.
  25. Lydia
  26. 11.
  27. Joe
  28. 12.
  29. Cathy
  30. 13.
  31. Now
  32. 14.
  33. Then
  34. 15.
  35. Cathy
  36. Part II
  37. 16.
  38. Joe
  39. 17.
  40. Now
  41. 18.
  42. Then
  43. 19.
  44. Joe
  45. 20.
  46. Joe
  47. 21.
  48. Now
  49. Part III
  50. 22.
  51. Then
  52. 23.
  53. Cathy
  54. 24.
  55. Joe
  56. 25.
  57. Joe
  58. 26.
  59. Now
  60. 27.
  61. Then
  62. 28.
  63. Lydia
  64. 29.
  65. Joe
  66. 30.
  67. Cathy
  68. 31.
  69. Lydia
  70. 32.
  71. Cathy
  72. 33.
  73. Joe
  74. 34.
  75. Cathy
  76. 35.
  77. Now
  78. 36.
  79. Then
  80. 37.
  81. Joe
  82. 38.
  83. Now
  84. 39.
  85. Then
  86. 40.
  87. Joe
  88. 41.
  89. Now
  90. 42.
  91. Then
  92. 43.
  93. Joe
  94. 44.
  95. Cathy
  96. 45.
  97. Lydia
  98. 46.
  99. Joe
  100. 47.
  101. Cathy
  102. 48.
  103. Now
  104. 49.
  105. Then
  106. Part IV
  107. 50.
  108. Joe
  109. 51.
  110. Cathy
  111. 52.
  112. Now
  113. 53.
  114. Then
  115. Part V
  116. 54.
  117. Joe
  118. 55.
  119. Cathy
  120. Part VI
  121. 56.
  122. Joe
  123. 57.
  124. Cathy
  125. 58.
  126. Now
  127. 59.
  128. Then
  129. 60.
  130. Joe
  131. 61.
  132. Cathy
  133. 62.
  134. Cathy
  135. 63.
  136. Joe
  137. 64.
  138. Cathy
  139. 65.
  140. Joe
  141. 66.
  142. Lydia
  143. 67.
  144. Joe
  145. Part VII
  146. 68.
  147. Joe
  148. 69.
  149. Now
  150. 70.
  151. Then
  152. 71.
  153. Cathy
  154. 72.
  155. Now
  156. 73.
  157. Then
  158. 74.
  159. Now
  160. Epilogue
  161. Acknowledgements
  162. Read more
  163. Read more
  164. Prologue
  165. THIS IS JUST THE BEGINNING
  166. Table of Contents

Frannie rounds on Cathy. ‘How could you do this to me?’ she says. ‘Now is not the time to be good, Cathy!’ Joe winces. Cathy won’t like that, but it’s true. She is good, and controlled, and remote, at times too. She’s never had a relationship, to his knowledge.

He dials 112 on his keypad, and Frannie lunges for his phone, batting it out of his hand. ‘What the fuck?’ Joe shouts. The phone lies face down, the soil and the blood bleached to a thin sanitized stripe around it by its light.

‘If you call the police, I will go to prison for decades,’ Frannie shouts. She sits back down on the ground, puts her head in her hands and begins to sob.

‘Stop it, Joe,’ Cathy says.

‘Who was I supposed to call?’ Frannie says, looking up at him. ‘If not you?’

The pleading sentence, her huge wet eyes. He cannot resist. He was there for her when she laboured, alone, with Paul. He brought her whatever she wanted – and that was a lot. Iced water, a popsicle, a box of crackers she ate between contractions, and then – afterwards – a flame-grilled Whopper from Burger King that took him a forty-minute round-trip to get. Nobody is there for Frannie like Joe is.

Cathy is biting the skin around her thumbnail, staring at Frannie, her eyes wide.

Frannie passes him the phone, above her head, not looking at him. ‘But sure, do it.’

‘I …’ Joe says, hesitating, but he takes the phone. Cathy stares at the transaction, then at the lit-up rectangle in Joe’s hands. He looks at Frannie, and his resolve to do the right thing splinters to nothing, like a pane of glass being shattered. His little sister, his three-legged-race running partner, his Happy Meal sharer, his sibling, his best friend, his history.

‘I can’t,’ he says softly.

Cathy looks at him. ‘You can’t,’ she echoes. A sheen across her eyes catches the moonlight.

It looks just like the night-time at home. He, Cathy and Frannie live in a row of three cottages with no other neighbours – a feat they can’t believe they pulled off – and he almost always goes round to Frannie’s for bath time, closing his farmhouse door behind him and pushing open Frannie’s. Cathy’s and Joe’s used to be a shop and a post office respectively, with small rooms and low ceilings. Frannie’s was originally a house – part funded by their parents, for her – built in 1850, and is larger and airier than the others.

He shoves his hands into his pockets. He could hand her in. Save himself. He’d be mad not to consider it, wouldn’t he? But she looks up at him now, his baby sister, her head tilted back. No. That isn’t an option. It began its life as Frannie’s problem, but now it’s shared.

‘We need to bury it,’ Frannie says. ‘Him.’

Cathy waits a second, clearly thinking. After a moment, she says only one word: ‘Where?’