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  1. Gillian McAllister
  2. Contents
  3. About the Author
  4. Prologue
  5. 1.
  6. Cathy
  7. 2.
  8. Joe
  9. 3.
  10. Cathy
  11. 4.
  12. Now
  13. 5.
  14. Then
  15. 6.
  16. Joe
  17. Part I
  18. 7.
  19. Joe
  20. 8.
  21. Now
  22. 9.
  23. Then
  24. 10.
  25. Lydia
  26. 11.
  27. Joe
  28. 12.
  29. Cathy
  30. 13.
  31. Now
  32. 14.
  33. Then
  34. 15.
  35. Cathy
  36. Part II
  37. 16.
  38. Joe
  39. 17.
  40. Now
  41. 18.
  42. Then
  43. 19.
  44. Joe
  45. 20.
  46. Joe
  47. 21.
  48. Now
  49. Part III
  50. 22.
  51. Then
  52. 23.
  53. Cathy
  54. 24.
  55. Joe
  56. 25.
  57. Joe
  58. 26.
  59. Now
  60. 27.
  61. Then
  62. 28.
  63. Lydia
  64. 29.
  65. Joe
  66. 30.
  67. Cathy
  68. 31.
  69. Lydia
  70. 32.
  71. Cathy
  72. 33.
  73. Joe
  74. 34.
  75. Cathy
  76. 35.
  77. Now
  78. 36.
  79. Then
  80. 37.
  81. Joe
  82. 38.
  83. Now
  84. 39.
  85. Then
  86. 40.
  87. Joe
  88. 41.
  89. Now
  90. 42.
  91. Then
  92. 43.
  93. Joe
  94. 44.
  95. Cathy
  96. 45.
  97. Lydia
  98. 46.
  99. Joe
  100. 47.
  101. Cathy
  102. 48.
  103. Now
  104. 49.
  105. Then
  106. Part IV
  107. 50.
  108. Joe
  109. 51.
  110. Cathy
  111. 52.
  112. Now
  113. 53.
  114. Then
  115. Part V
  116. 54.
  117. Joe
  118. 55.
  119. Cathy
  120. Part VI
  121. 56.
  122. Joe
  123. 57.
  124. Cathy
  125. 58.
  126. Now
  127. 59.
  128. Then
  129. 60.
  130. Joe
  131. 61.
  132. Cathy
  133. 62.
  134. Cathy
  135. 63.
  136. Joe
  137. 64.
  138. Cathy
  139. 65.
  140. Joe
  141. 66.
  142. Lydia
  143. 67.
  144. Joe
  145. Part VII
  146. 68.
  147. Joe
  148. 69.
  149. Now
  150. 70.
  151. Then
  152. 71.
  153. Cathy
  154. 72.
  155. Now
  156. 73.
  157. Then
  158. 74.
  159. Now
  160. Epilogue
  161. Acknowledgements
  162. Read more
  163. Read more
  164. Prologue
  165. THIS IS JUST THE BEGINNING
  166. Table of Contents

She stares out at the street down below as she imagines her mother gathering the photographs, sifting through them.

A soft knock at her door, which then eases open. Cathy turns and is surprised to see Frannie. ‘Dad said you were up here,’ she says with a small shrug.

‘Oh,’ Cathy says, standing there in pyjamas. The room smells of burnt matches and the hair-straightener smell of the central heating. It’s slowly warming up, her limbs relaxing in the pyjamas, in the warmth. ‘How come you’re here?’

‘Paul’s being such a pain – he’s just fractious, I think it’s because he’s learning so many words. Mostly dinosaurs. I thought we’d come and stay,’ she says. She wraps her slim arms across her waist. ‘Great minds. How’re you?’

‘I’m okay,’ Cathy says.

‘Really?’ Frannie says, her brow wrinkled. They hear the sound of Paul’s cries downstairs, and Frannie stiffens, looking watchful. Then they hear their mother. They can’t make out the words, only a high kind of babbling, a happy sound, and Frannie smiles wanly.

She moves Cathy’s bag and sits on the blue cloth ottoman at the end of the bed. ‘Joe told me they’re searching the woods by the track road.’

‘I’m sorry,’ Cathy says. ‘I wish … I don’t know. Hopefully … we’re not suspects …’

‘Yeah. Hopefully. How are you really?’

‘I’m fine, Fran,’ she says.

‘I don’t want us to turn against each other,’ Frannie says. ‘I know Joe’s name on that document is … it doesn’t make sense to me either.’

‘We’re not turning against each other – who said that?’

‘Nobody,’ Frannie says, louder than Cathy was expecting. ‘I’m just – I don’t know. You’re not yourself.’

‘Why do you think his name was on the document, then?’

‘I have no idea. It doesn’t make sense, like I said.’

‘So much of this doesn’t make sense.’

A question flashes across Frannie’s features. ‘Like what?’

Fuck it, Cathy thinks, remembering her dark eyes in the mirror, thinking of Tom, every lie she’s told, how they are now fractured, because of Frannie, unable to form the kinds of relationships they formed before. And all for this, a momentary act of altruism that Cathy suddenly, and for the first time, truly wishes she could take back.

‘Do you really think Joe is –’ Cathy says.

‘I think he hasn’t got a clue.’ Frannie brings a pink hand to her breastbone. ‘I know Joe, and he isn’t lying.’

‘Yeah.’ Cathy plucks at the poppers on the duvet cover. ‘They’ve had this since the eighties,’ she says, picking up the end of it and flapping it.

‘At least,’ Frannie says. ‘They never fucking buy anything.’

Cathy laughs at that. ‘I know. They used to, you know.’

‘Really?’

‘Used to go every Saturday. Mum would go to town – take us.’

A globule of wax tracks its way down the side of one of the green candles. Cathy watches it gain momentum, leaving a wet trail behind it like a snail.