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Chapters (45)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Prologue
  4. Chapter One
  5. Chapter Two
  6. Chapter Three
  7. Chapter Four
  8. Chapter Five
  9. Chapter Six
  10. Chapter Seven
  11. Chapter Eight
  12. Chapter Nine
  13. Chapter Ten
  14. Chapter Eleven
  15. Chapter Twelve
  16. Chapter Thirteen
  17. Chapter Fourteen
  18. Chapter Fifteen
  19. Chapter Sixteen
  20. Chapter Seventeen
  21. Chapter Eighteen
  22. Chapter Nineteen
  23. Chapter Twenty
  24. Chapter Twenty-One
  25. Chapter Twenty-Two
  26. Chapter Twenty-Three
  27. Chapter Twenty-Four
  28. Chapter Twenty-Five
  29. Chapter Twenty-Six
  30. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  31. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  32. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  33. Chapter Thirty
  34. Chapter Thirty-One
  35. Chapter Thirty-Two
  36. Chapter Thirty-Three
  37. Chapter Thirty-Four
  38. Chapter Thirty-Five
  39. Chapter Thirty-Six
  40. Chapter Thirty-Seven
  41. Chapter Thirty-Eight
  42. Chapter Thirty-Nine
  43. Epilogue
  44. Acknowledgements
  45. About the Author

Communication has never been my strong suit and Liam knows I’m not ready to admit that I love him again, even if the words are on the tip of my tongue, but his willingness to tell me how he feels wrecks me. Like always, Liam holds me to his chest and lets me cry.

I wish I could say it is just pregnancy hormones but I know that isn’t the truth, I’ve just never felt safe enough to cry. I needed to be strong, always, but now Liam has given me a place to be as vulnerable as I feel without judgment.

“Will you go easy on me?” I ask him. Tears are drying on my face, my eyes must be rimmed red but he still looks at me as if I’m beautiful.

“What do you mean?” I can see a flash of hope in his gaze that he tries to hide, not wanting to wish I could be ready. Never wanting to push me if I’m not there.

“If I say I want to try with us, will you give me grace? I can’t promise you an easy forever but I want to try. I really want to try.” I have more than just myself to think about, but I know I can’t push Liam out of my life out of fear because not only does Jack want him in his life, I want him in our daughter’s life. In mine, too.

“I’ll give you anything you need Ellis Ainsley, as long as you’re mine,” he says.

But I’m not his. Not yet. And yet, I want to be. I want to be a family, it’s something I’ve never had and I always promised I’d give Jack a different life than me. I have the chance to give him a dad, a man who makes his mum happy and who loves me including Jack, not in spite of him.

Liam has pushed me so far out of my comfort zone since January and now I have friends I never would have imagined – I’m in a hockey group chat for crying out loud. One where his team ask for updates. One where they send me pictures of Liam reading baby books on the plane to games. A chat where they co-ordinate who is going to check on Bloom and Blossom for me. Hell, Rook has taken the liberty of letting me know he is on food duty when the baby comes, something about a bad experience with hospital food when he had his appendix removed. I am surrounded by help and people who show me I am worth going out of their way for. I just need to open myself up enough to believe them.

I deserve happiness.

It’s time I stop standing in my own way.

Chapter Twenty-Seven

August

Liam