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Chapters (107)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Foreword
  4. Introduction
  5. POEMS
  6. Shaukat ke Naam
  7. To Shaukat*
  8. Pashemani
  9. Regret
  10. Sarojini Naidu
  11. Sarojini Naidu
  12. Behroopni
  13. She of the Many Faces
  14. Andeshe
  15. Anxious Thoughts
  16. Aurat
  17. Woman
  18. Bewa ki Khudkushi
  19. A Widow’s Suicide
  20. Doshiza Malan
  21. The Virginal Flower Girl
  22. Ek Dua
  23. A Prayer
  24. Ek Bosa
  25. A Kiss
  26. Ek Lamha!
  27. A Moment!
  28. Ehtiyat
  29. Caution
  30. Naya Husn
  31. New Beauty
  32. Nazrana
  33. Tribute
  34. Pyar ka Jashn
  35. A Celebration of Love
  36. Tasawur
  37. Imagination
  38. Tum
  39. You
  40. Ajnabi
  41. Stranger
  42. Pehla Salaam
  43. The First Greeting
  44. Aaina
  45. Mirror
  46. Akhfa-i Muhabbat
  47. Concealing Love
  48. Roosi Aurat ka Naara
  49. The Call of the Russian Woman
  50. Hausla
  51. Courage
  52. Garbhwati
  53. The Pregnant Woman
  54. Peetal ke Kangan
  55. Brass Bangles
  56. FILM LYRICS
  57. Waqt Ne Kiya Kya Haseen Sitam*
  58. What a Beautiful Cruelty Time Has Inflicted
  59. Zara Sii Aahat Hotii Hai*
  60. At the Faintest Footfall . . .
  61. Yeh Nayan Darey Darey*
  62. These Fear-filled Eyes
  63. Merey Chanda, Mere Nanhe*
  64. My Darling, My Little One
  65. Kuchh Dil Ne Kaha*
  66. The Heart Says Something
  67. Dheerey-dheerey Machal Ai Dil-e Be-qaraar*
  68. Quieten, Quieten, O Restless Heart
  69. Abhi Kya Sunogey Suna To Hasogey*
  70. What Will You Hear Now, You Will Laugh If You Do
  71. Maa Hai Mohabbat ka Naam*
  72. A Mother Is a Name for Love
  73. Aaj Socha To Aansu Bhar Aaye*
  74. Tears Well Up When I Think of It
  75. Betaab Dil Ki Tamanna Yehi Hai*
  76. The Sole Desire of My Restless Heart
  77. Hai Tere Saath Meri Wafa*
  78. My Fidelity Will Stay with You
  79. Har Taraf Ab Yahii Afsaney Hain*
  80. All Around Me I Hear It Said
  81. Koi Yeh Kaise Bataye Ke Woh Tanha Kyun Hai*
  82. How Does One Explain . . .
  83. Jhuki Jhuki Si Nazar . . .*
  84. This Lowered Gaze
  85. Tum Itna Jo Muskura Rahey Ho . . .*
  86. You Are Smiling So Much
  87. Afterword
  88. Footnotes
  89. To Shaukat
  90. The Virginal Flower Girl
  91. Waqt Ne Kiya Kya Haseen Sitam
  92. Zara Sii Aahat Hotii Hai
  93. Yeh Nayan Darey Darey
  94. Merey Chanda, Mere Nanhe
  95. Kuchh Dil Ne Kaha
  96. Dheerey-dheerey Machal Ai Dil-e Be-qaraar
  97. Abhi Kya Sunogey Suna To Hasogey
  98. Maa Hai Mohabbat ka Naam
  99. Aaj Socha To Aansu Bhar Aaye
  100. Betaab Dil Ki Tamanna Yehi Hai
  101. Hai Tere Saath Meri Wafa
  102. Har Taraf Ab Yahii Afsaney Hain
  103. Koi Yeh Kaise Bataye Ke Woh Tanha Kyun Hai
  104. Jhuki Jhuki Si Nazar . . .
  105. Tum Itna Jo Muskura Rahey Ho . . .
  106. Select Bibliography
  107. THE BEGINNING

Shahr se duur ja ke pheink aaya

Aur elaan kar diya ki utho

Barf si jam gai hai sinon mein

Garm boson se uss ko pighla do

Kar lo jo bhi gunah woh kam hai

Aaj ki raat jashn-e-adam hai

Yeh miri aastin se nikli

Rakh diya daud ke charaġh pe haath

Mal diya phir andhera chehre par

Hont se dil ki baat laut gaii

Dar tak aa ke baraat laut gaii

Uss ne mujh ko alag bula ke kaha

Aaj ki zindagi ka naam hai ḳhauf

Khauf hii who zamin hai jis mein

Firqe ugte hain firqe palte hain

Dhare sagar se kat ke chalte hain

Khauf jab tak dilon men baaqi hai

Sirf chehra badalte rahna hai

Sirf lahja badalte rahna hai

Koi mujh ko mita nahin sakta

Jashn-e-adam mana nahin sakta

She of the Many Faces

Hundreds of faces on one neck

And thousands of scars on each face

And every scar a closed door

That lets in no light

And lets out no light

The tank in the mosque is narrow-chested

The heart is a leaf plate that

Dogs keep licking away at

Once the pujaris are done

And then the dogs bite the gods

God knows which womb birthed her

God knows in which courtyard she grew

God knows which country the wretch came from

For she speaks in every tongue

And opens wounds as though they are windows

And then peering into the heart, she says

Your religion, your great God

The beautiful idols of your civilization

Danger engulfs everyone today

Darkness awaits the world after them

My blood runs cold

My open eyes shut

It seems as though everyone in the world is

An enemy and there are no friends

And the earth is swallowing me alive

It seems as though some ogre

A pitcher dangling from his waist

Will climb the sky before night ends

Squeeze out all the light

And snatch off my stars too

The earth’s bosom has cracked open

And the processions that have burst out of it

Tell me that I am one of them

If I am theirs then who am I?

I am no one’s; I am my own

I was birthed by solitude

All of me emanates from loneliness

Who will bother with me in a crowd?

The day I raise my feet in tandem with others

I will forget how to walk on my own

These and similar questions

Despite searching for them till this day

I have never found a trace of their parents

She pours these questions into my mind

She clenches me in her fist

I wish I could kill her

But when I strike her

Wounds break out on my breast

Blood drips from my forehead

God knows what binds me to her

I have given the call for prayer amidst storms

Sounded the conch on dark nights

Hung a crucifix outside my home

Made sure she was banished from every door