Back Forgive Me Save as PDF
Chapters (65)
  1. Cover
  2. Prologue
  3. Chapter One
  4. Chapter Two
  5. Chapter Three
  6. Chapter Four
  7. Chapter Five
  8. Chapter Six
  9. Chapter Seven
  10. Chapter Eight
  11. Chapter Nine
  12. Chapter Ten
  13. Chapter Eleven
  14. Chapter Twelve
  15. Chapter Thirteen
  16. Chapter Fourteen
  17. Chapter Fifteen
  18. Chapter Sixteen
  19. Chapter Seventeen
  20. Chapter Eighteen
  21. Chapter Nineteen
  22. Chapter Twenty
  23. Chapter Twenty-One
  24. Chapter Twenty-Two
  25. Chapter Twenty-Three
  26. Chapter Twenty-Four
  27. Chapter Twenty-Five
  28. Chapter Twenty-Six
  29. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  30. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  31. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  32. Chapter Thirty
  33. Chapter Thirty-One
  34. Chapter Thirty-Two
  35. Chapter Thirty-Three
  36. Chapter Thirty-Four
  37. Chapter Thirty-Five
  38. Chapter Thirty-Six
  39. Chapter Thirty-Seven
  40. Chapter Thirty-Eight
  41. Chapter Thirty-Nine
  42. Chapter Forty
  43. Chapter Forty-One
  44. Chapter Forty-Two
  45. Chapter Forty-Three
  46. Chapter Forty-Four
  47. Chapter Forty-Five
  48. Chapter Forty-Six
  49. Chapter Forty-Seven
  50. Chapter Forty-Eight
  51. Chapter Forty-Nine
  52. Chapter Fifty
  53. Chapter Fifty-One
  54. Chapter Fifty-Two
  55. Chapter Fifty-Three
  56. Chapter Fifty-Four
  57. Chapter Fifty-Five
  58. Acknowledgments
  59. P.S. Insights, Interviews & More . . .*
  60. About the Author
  61. About the Book
  62. Read On
  63. Praise for Susan Lewis and Her Books
  64. Also by Susan Lewis
  65. About the Publisher

“I believe,” he continued carefully, “I hope, that if you can gain an insight into the person who did this to you and why he did it . . . OK, I know he was paid, and that he needn’t have done it, but if you read his story, told in his own words, it might help you to understand him . . .”

“I’ve already told you . . .”

“. . . and that could be extremely beneficial for you, and for your mother. I think Jasmine needs it too, but Marcy is the one who is finding it the hardest to overcome what happened. It’s not just her injuries, although obviously they’re a big part of why she hardly goes out in public, it’s the suppression of her spirit, her inability or unwillingness to communicate or to feel that is the biggest concern. We both know what a lively and confident woman she really is, and I accept that the kind of trauma she suffered can change a person, but I am not ready to accept that it’s changed her. She’s still there, I’m sure of it, and I know you are too. We have to support her, Claudia, and the fact that she’s prepared to read the letters suggests to me that she’s ready to do even this if it’s going to help her.”

Claudia lowered her eyes, not wanting to look at him anymore, not even sure she could go on listening in spite of the glimmers of hope he was offering. She wanted to resist him, to carry on ranting, accusing him of betraying her trust, insisting that he didn’t know what was best for her mother, or for her. The words, the anger, were all there knotted up inside her along with the hatred of Archie Colbrook and all the evil things she wished on him. And yet, making its way into all that pent-up rage and venom was the inescapable realization that Dan could be right.

Minutes ticked by. There was so much she wanted to say, to ask, to feel even, but everything was so jumbled and uncertain that she couldn’t try. She simply stood where she was, stiff and cold and finally yielding to him as his arms went around her and he held her the way he had the day he’d found her on the moor, soothing her loneliness and despair with his quiet, undemanding strength.

“It’s starting to rain,” he said after a while. “We should go back inside or sit in the car.”

She chose the car and it was only when she found herself on the passenger side that she realized they were in his BMW, not hers. It hardly mattered, they weren’t going anywhere, although perhaps she wished they were, somewhere a long way from here where she might be able to think more clearly, or even pretend that life didn’t require so many impossible decisions.