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Chapters (65)
  1. Cover
  2. Prologue
  3. Chapter One
  4. Chapter Two
  5. Chapter Three
  6. Chapter Four
  7. Chapter Five
  8. Chapter Six
  9. Chapter Seven
  10. Chapter Eight
  11. Chapter Nine
  12. Chapter Ten
  13. Chapter Eleven
  14. Chapter Twelve
  15. Chapter Thirteen
  16. Chapter Fourteen
  17. Chapter Fifteen
  18. Chapter Sixteen
  19. Chapter Seventeen
  20. Chapter Eighteen
  21. Chapter Nineteen
  22. Chapter Twenty
  23. Chapter Twenty-One
  24. Chapter Twenty-Two
  25. Chapter Twenty-Three
  26. Chapter Twenty-Four
  27. Chapter Twenty-Five
  28. Chapter Twenty-Six
  29. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  30. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  31. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  32. Chapter Thirty
  33. Chapter Thirty-One
  34. Chapter Thirty-Two
  35. Chapter Thirty-Three
  36. Chapter Thirty-Four
  37. Chapter Thirty-Five
  38. Chapter Thirty-Six
  39. Chapter Thirty-Seven
  40. Chapter Thirty-Eight
  41. Chapter Thirty-Nine
  42. Chapter Forty
  43. Chapter Forty-One
  44. Chapter Forty-Two
  45. Chapter Forty-Three
  46. Chapter Forty-Four
  47. Chapter Forty-Five
  48. Chapter Forty-Six
  49. Chapter Forty-Seven
  50. Chapter Forty-Eight
  51. Chapter Forty-Nine
  52. Chapter Fifty
  53. Chapter Fifty-One
  54. Chapter Fifty-Two
  55. Chapter Fifty-Three
  56. Chapter Fifty-Four
  57. Chapter Fifty-Five
  58. Acknowledgments
  59. P.S. Insights, Interviews & More . . .*
  60. About the Author
  61. About the Book
  62. Read On
  63. Praise for Susan Lewis and Her Books
  64. Also by Susan Lewis
  65. About the Publisher

Anyways, I’m going to start my out-of-character stuff with a really big thank-you for reading my letters. I know there was never any guarantee you would, but after I got a bit more used to doing them I really felt as though I was talking to you, so I always hoped you’d see them one day. Dan says your daughter’s read them too, and your granddaughter, so I also want to say thanks to them. You might all still hate my guts—probably a given—and the reason you want to see me could be to spit in my face—probably another given—but even if that’s true I’m still grateful for you taking the time to read what I wrote.

Now here comes the really big one and I’ll probably mess it up, but I get that it’s important to try, so here goes.

With all my heart and soul I’m sorry for what I did to you and your family. I regret it more than anything I’ve ever done in my life, and I’ll never stop regretting it. Please don’t think this is me angling for forgiveness. I get that would be too much to ask so I’m not going to try. I just need to tell you that I’m sorrier than anyone has ever been about anything. I am a hundred percent genuine with this. It doesn’t have anything to do with me trying to sway a judge or to get my AM charge reduced. In fact, now I know you want to see me it’s changed a lot of things for me, so I’ve told my solicitor that I want her to stop trying for a lesser charge. I could have killed you even though I never meant to, and so it’s only right that I face up to what I did and do the time. This means there won’t be a trial because I’m going to change my plea to guilty so you won’t have to go through that ordeal.

I hope that proves to you how sorry I am.

If I could do what I know you really want I swear I would, but if I do it’ll be my ma who suffers and I just can’t allow that to happen. I hope you understand and that me spending the rest of my natural in prison will help to make up for it.

Chapter Thirty-Nine

Andee said, “I guess you’ve read the letter from Archie that I dropped off yesterday?”

Claudia glanced at her mother as she passed Andee a cup of tea.

“You’re looking worried,” Andee told them. “Can I ask what’s bothering you about it?”