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Chapters (65)
  1. Cover
  2. Prologue
  3. Chapter One
  4. Chapter Two
  5. Chapter Three
  6. Chapter Four
  7. Chapter Five
  8. Chapter Six
  9. Chapter Seven
  10. Chapter Eight
  11. Chapter Nine
  12. Chapter Ten
  13. Chapter Eleven
  14. Chapter Twelve
  15. Chapter Thirteen
  16. Chapter Fourteen
  17. Chapter Fifteen
  18. Chapter Sixteen
  19. Chapter Seventeen
  20. Chapter Eighteen
  21. Chapter Nineteen
  22. Chapter Twenty
  23. Chapter Twenty-One
  24. Chapter Twenty-Two
  25. Chapter Twenty-Three
  26. Chapter Twenty-Four
  27. Chapter Twenty-Five
  28. Chapter Twenty-Six
  29. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  30. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  31. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  32. Chapter Thirty
  33. Chapter Thirty-One
  34. Chapter Thirty-Two
  35. Chapter Thirty-Three
  36. Chapter Thirty-Four
  37. Chapter Thirty-Five
  38. Chapter Thirty-Six
  39. Chapter Thirty-Seven
  40. Chapter Thirty-Eight
  41. Chapter Thirty-Nine
  42. Chapter Forty
  43. Chapter Forty-One
  44. Chapter Forty-Two
  45. Chapter Forty-Three
  46. Chapter Forty-Four
  47. Chapter Forty-Five
  48. Chapter Forty-Six
  49. Chapter Forty-Seven
  50. Chapter Forty-Eight
  51. Chapter Forty-Nine
  52. Chapter Fifty
  53. Chapter Fifty-One
  54. Chapter Fifty-Two
  55. Chapter Fifty-Three
  56. Chapter Fifty-Four
  57. Chapter Fifty-Five
  58. Acknowledgments
  59. P.S. Insights, Interviews & More . . .*
  60. About the Author
  61. About the Book
  62. Read On
  63. Praise for Susan Lewis and Her Books
  64. Also by Susan Lewis
  65. About the Publisher

It takes some getting used to, I can tell you, but once I get into it, it turns out to be something I find myself looking forward to doing. Weird, huh? It also means I get to see Dan on a fairly regular basis and if he can’t come I send in my homework, as I call it, and he brings it with him the next time he comes so we can discuss it.

During all this time he doesn’t mention much about what’s going on with you, but I know he’s building up to it and I’m bracing myself. Finally, he gets around to telling me that even though you’ve been out of hospital for a good while, you’re still not doing all that well. He says physically you’re healing the way you should, although you’ll always have scars, but upstairs you’ve still got the curtains pulled. I feel myself shrinking up inside when I hear that, like I need to get away from it, but there’s also a lot I want to say to you, I just don’t know how to find the words.

He wants me to write one more letter after this one before he starts what he calls the next stage of the process, whatever that is, but I’ve decided not to. He doesn’t understand why, so I tell him that I need to know what you think of my other letters before I start trying with all the sorry stuff. OK, I get that it doesn’t work like that, it’s not my place to call shots in this, but truth is, I’m scared. Big admission for me, that. It’s true though. I’m scared that there’s nothing I can do or say that’ll make a difference for you and that’ll be like hurting you all over again.

I know he’s going to tell me that the best way I can help you is to name the PC who ordered the hit. The trouble is, that’s like asking me to choose between you and my ma.

Chapter Thirty-Six

“Are you OK? Not too tired?” Claudia asked, opening the front door for her mother to go in ahead of her.

“Not tired at all,” Marcy replied softly, and after unbuttoning her coat she hung it on the stand while Claudia made a point of not watching her; she knew that it bothered her mother to have her single-handed efforts to help herself monitored as if she were a child. Actually, she was doing quite well on that front, and it wasn’t as if her left hand didn’t function at all, it just hadn’t regained much of the dexterity it had enjoyed before.