Our dates grew to the place where not only did I allow him to fondle my breasts, but I began to allow him to suck my nipples and eventually, I even allowed him to orally pleasure me. My fetish could not be contained within the recesses of my mind and I became so excited that I needed sexual relief and I desired his touch and tongue. I taught him how to orally please a woman and how to bring me to orgasms but I stayed true to my commitment and did not permit him intercourse. My original motives in keeping him a virgin were pure, as I was doing this because of my relationship with his Mother. But it developed into this strong fetish. I literally got off in denying him sex while he had to pleasure me.

He did not know the pleasure I was getting within my mind by denying him and he thought I was making him stop short of intercourse for morality reasons. We continued to date and eventually we became engaged. I stayed true to my commitment even after we became engaged.

His mother was surprised at our engagement but she saw how happy her son was so she actually gave us her blessing for our marriage. She assumed her son and I were in a traditional and vanilla relationship.

My goal was to keep him a virgin until our wedding night. Somehow my fetish and sexuality became so strong that I almost needed for him to be a virgin. I can't explain it but I felt so in control and so powerful making him pleasure me while I denied him. He had accidents and climaxed a few times as we were making out. I even stroked him to orgasm on a few occasions but I would not permit him to penetrate me.

I became so turned on about the thought of a virgin boy performing cunnilingus and worshipping my body. I experienced many orgasms as he would eat me and I would often pleasure myself with my vibrato when I was by myself as I pondered this power dynamic in my mind. I enjoyed this intense mental stimulation so much that I realized that as soon as he lost his virginity, this power dynamic would be gone forever and I worried if I would still enjoy sex with him. Strange, I know, but I could not help what was occurring with my sexuality.

A few weeks before our wedding, I asked him if he would be willing to remain a virgin after our wedding. He said ‘No’ but I was so use to being the dominant partner and I was so accustomed to getting my way, that I threatened him by saying that perhaps he should find someone else to marry. He was stunned and devastated so he begged me to marry him and he agreed to abide by any terms and conditions I decided to set. This excited me even further.