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Chapters (74)
  1. Cover
  2. Praise for Lynn Austin
  3. Also by Lynn Austin
  4. Epigraph
  5. PROLOGUE
  6. CHAPTER 1
  7. CHAPTER 2
  8. CHAPTER 3
  9. CHAPTER 4
  10. CHAPTER 5
  11. CHAPTER 6
  12. CHAPTER 7
  13. CHAPTER 8
  14. CHAPTER 9
  15. CHAPTER 10
  16. CHAPTER 11
  17. CHAPTER 12
  18. CHAPTER 13
  19. CHAPTER 14
  20. CHAPTER 15
  21. CHAPTER 16
  22. CHAPTER 17
  23. CHAPTER 18
  24. CHAPTER 19
  25. CHAPTER 20
  26. CHAPTER 21
  27. CHAPTER 22
  28. CHAPTER 23
  29. CHAPTER 24
  30. CHAPTER 25
  31. CHAPTER 26
  32. CHAPTER 27
  33. CHAPTER 28
  34. CHAPTER 29
  35. CHAPTER 30
  36. CHAPTER 31
  37. CHAPTER 32
  38. CHAPTER 33
  39. CHAPTER 34
  40. CHAPTER 35
  41. CHAPTER 36
  42. CHAPTER 37
  43. CHAPTER 38
  44. CHAPTER 39
  45. CHAPTER 40
  46. CHAPTER 41
  47. CHAPTER 42
  48. CHAPTER 43
  49. CHAPTER 44
  50. CHAPTER 45
  51. CHAPTER 46
  52. CHAPTER 47
  53. CHAPTER 48
  54. CHAPTER 49
  55. CHAPTER 50
  56. CHAPTER 51
  57. CHAPTER 52
  58. CHAPTER 53
  59. CHAPTER 54
  60. CHAPTER 55
  61. CHAPTER 56
  62. CHAPTER 57
  63. CHAPTER 58
  64. CHAPTER 59
  65. CHAPTER 60
  66. CHAPTER 61
  67. CHAPTER 62
  68. CHAPTER 63
  69. EPILOGUE
  70. CHAPTER 1
  71. A Note from the Author
  72. Acknowledgments
  73. Discussion Questions
  74. About the Author

“I’ve already told everyone about Bep’s parents,” she said in a tight voice. “Ans brought her here because she was friends with them. If that explanation isn’t enough . . . !” She was too furious to finish. She turned away from Truus and watched her children playing as she struggled to control her temper. Maaike was enraptured with Bep and was like a fussy little mother. Wim proudly stood guard, ignoring his friend who called to him to play. Should Lena defend her honor and pride with the truth and endanger this baby? Or was she willing to sacrifice her reputation to save a Jewish baby’s life? “People will believe whatever they choose to believe,” she finally said. “If they want to accuse my daughter, they should have the decency to do it to my face.”

Truus glanced all around as if someone might be listening, then lowered her voice again. “Lena, we’ve known each other all our lives. We’re family. You know I would never betray your secrets. You can trust me with the truth.”

Lena turned back to her. “Are you asking me if it’s true? You think Bep is Ans’s daughter?”

Truus shrugged as if to say, Yes, why not?

Lena hesitated. Bep would be safer if Truus and everyone else in town believed the rumor. The orphan story sounded too convenient and a bit suspicious. Yet Lena’s instinct was to protect Ans’s reputation. Yes, she’d been rebellious in earlier years, but Ans was strong and beautiful and kind and good. She’d risked her life to bring Bep here and to help her Jewish parents. She was risking her life every day by working with the Resistance. Ans would gladly sacrifice her reputation for this beautiful child. And as difficult as it would be, Lena knew she would have to sacrifice her own reputation as well. She would become the mother whose scandalous daughter had brought home an illegitimate baby for her to raise.

“You can’t tell anyone, Truus,” Lena said quietly.

Truus’s eyes grew wide. “So she is Ans’s baby?”

“Bep is our daughter now. Pieter and I will raise her as our own.”

Lena and Pieter were about to go upstairs to bed a week after Bep’s arrival when there was a soft knock on the kitchen door. They looked at each other. “Are you expecting anyone?” she whispered. Pieter shook his head. Lena scrambled to her feet and raced upstairs to make sure all the children were asleep. She heard the door squeal open, but she didn’t hear any voices. When she was certain that none of the children were awake, she crept downstairs again to the kitchen. Pieter was talking with a man, their voices so low she couldn’t hear what they were saying. One of the stairs creaked, and when Pieter saw her, he motioned for her to come closer.