Chapters (64)
- Front Cover
- Title Page
- Copyright
- Contents
- Pronunciation Guide
- Prologue
- Part One
- One
- Two
- Three
- Four
- Five
- Six
- Seven
- Eight
- Nine
- Ten
- Eleven
- Twelve
- Thirteen
- Part Two
- Fourteen
- Fifteen
- Sixteen
- Seventeen
- Eighteen
- Nineteen
- Twenty
- Twenty-One
- Twenty-Two
- Twenty-Three
- Part Three
- Twenty-Four
- Twenty-Five
- Twenty-Six
- Twenty-Seven
- Twenty-Eight
- Twenty-Nine
- Thirty
- Thirty-One
- Thirty-Two
- Thirty-Three
- Thirty-Four
- Thirty-Five
- Part Four
- Thirty-Six
- Thirty-Seven
- Thirty-Eight
- Thirty-Nine
- Forty
- Forty-One
- Forty-Two
- Forty-Three
- Forty-Four
- Forty-Five
- Forty-Six
- Forty-Seven
- Epilogue
- Excerpt from The Sun and Its Shade
- The Night and Its Moon Playlist
- Acknowledgments
- About the Author
- Back Cover
Time had felt as though it had slowed once more while she’d taken in the features of the others. She’d managed to spy the faces, postures, and ages of the men at the table. While many were in the second half of their life, there appeared to be more than a few men in their teens and twenties at the table. Her eyes had snagged once more on the arch of fae ears as she looked away from a young, coppery man who may very well have been her age. That meant there were two fae at the table.
She shouldn’t have looked. It had been a distraction, and one that cost her. Now she stammered as she attempted to pull her thoughts together.
Somehow, starting to speak and then stopping again made things worse than if she hadn’t said anything at all. She was butchering her first impression, and she knew it. Amaris didn’t have the luxury of sounding like a child. She swallowed and willed authority into her voice as she spoke. She didn’t truly know what she was saying, but she spoke from her heart, scarcely examining the words that left her lips.
“I have no people,” she restated, voice wavering slightly. Insecurity would get her nowhere. If she didn’t feel particularly bold, she’d need to fake it to survive. Her words swelled to a false confidence as she spoke. “But if you’ll have me, you will be my people. You’re worried I’m a woman? I have no interest in being a damsel. I want to train, to learn, and to fight alongside you. I know what you must see when you look at me. I don’t blame you for your skepticism. Yes, today I am soft, but I wouldn’t ask for softness. Treat me as you would any boy of my age who arrived at your doorstep. Put me through the same trials. If I fail, I will fail as an assassin, not as a woman.”
“A reever,” the fae at the end of the table corrected.
“I—” she stammered at the amendment, not sure if she should apologize. “If I fail, I fail as a reever.”
His voice was almost as lovely as his face, though there was no question as to its strength. She’d tripped over the correction, feeling her courage unravel. She’d been on the edge of a rallying speech before stumbling over her words.
The eldest man grunted his disapproval, not looking at her as he spoke. “There’s a reason we don’t have women here. I won’t be making lighter armor, making smaller weapons, creating dainty—”