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Chapters (84)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. The Lost Daughter
  4. Prologue
  5. Chapter 1
  6. Chapter 2
  7. Chapter 3
  8. Chapter 4
  9. Chapter 5
  10. Chapter 6
  11. Chapter 7
  12. Chapter 8
  13. Chapter 9
  14. Chapter 10
  15. Chapter 11
  16. Chapter 12
  17. Chapter 13
  18. Chapter 14
  19. Chapter 15
  20. Chapter 16
  21. Chapter 17
  22. Chapter 18
  23. Chapter 19
  24. Chapter 20
  25. Chapter 21
  26. Chapter 22
  27. Chapter 23
  28. Chapter 24
  29. Chapter 25
  30. Chapter 26
  31. Chapter 27
  32. Chapter 28
  33. Chapter 29
  34. Chapter 30
  35. Chapter 31
  36. Chapter 32
  37. Chapter 33
  38. Chapter 34
  39. Chapter 35
  40. Chapter 36
  41. Chapter 37
  42. Chapter 38
  43. Chapter 39
  44. Chapter 40
  45. Chapter 41
  46. Chapter 42
  47. Chapter 43
  48. Chapter 44
  49. Chapter 45
  50. Chapter 46
  51. Chapter 47
  52. Chapter 48
  53. Chapter 49
  54. Chapter 50
  55. Chapter 51
  56. Chapter 52
  57. Chapter 53
  58. Chapter 54
  59. Chapter 55
  60. Chapter 56
  61. Chapter 57
  62. Chapter 58
  63. Chapter 59
  64. Chapter 60
  65. Chapter 61
  66. Chapter 62
  67. Chapter 63
  68. Chapter 64
  69. Chapter 65
  70. Epilogue
  71. Acknowledgments
  72. An Excerpt from JACKIE AND MARIA
  73. Chapter 1
  74. Chapter 2
  75. P.S. Insights, Interviews & More . . .*
  76. About the Author
  77. About the Book
  78. Historical Afterword
  79. Sources
  80. The Love Lives of the Romanov Daughters
  81. Reading Group Questions
  82. Praise for The Lost Daughter
  83. By Gill Paul
  84. About the Publisher

“He died in December,” Galina stuttered, and Maria felt ashamed she hadn’t noticed. She’d been too busy caring for her own family.

“What will I do?” Galina cried, hysteria in her voice. “I can’t look after myself.”

She was sixteen years old, like Katya. Too young to manage on her own. But why should Maria take on someone else’s child, a child who had caused her husband to be executed? She overruled the bitterness in her heart. “You must come and live with us,” she said. “Do you have any food here?”

Galina shook her head.

“I will teach you to forage. If you are to share our food, you must help to find it. Agreed?”

“Of course.” Galina was close to tears. “What shall we do with Mother?”

Maria knew that no ambulances were sent to collect bodies anymore, and that they would never find a coffin in which to bury her. The temperature was twenty degrees below freezing, so they had time. “Let’s leave her in her bed for now. I’ll speak to someone.”

Stepan, Irina, and Yelena accepted Galina’s presence without question, and Maria was proud of them. Stepan showed the girl where he had set traps to catch birds and rats and asked her to check them regularly; Maria taught her the type of plants to hunt for and where they might be found; and every day Galina accompanied Irina to collect their rations, because individuals carrying a brown paper bag of bread were liable to be mugged before they reached home.

At the factory, the women shared tips on feeding their families.

“You can scrape the wallpaper paste off the walls and eat it,” one said. “It’s flour and water, after all.”

“There’s some goodness in leather if you boil it long enough then drink the water,” another volunteered.

“I heard some people have turned to cannibalism,” an older woman told them, “even murdering their victims in order to eat them.”

“Russians would not do such a thing,” Maria insisted. But then she remembered that the men who had butchered her family were Russians. If they could do that, perhaps some would consume human flesh.

The bread ration dropped to just one small slice per person per day, and that was bulked out with sawdust so did little to relieve the pain that twisted their guts. The food at the factory canteen was watered down and there was less of it, so it became harder to bring jugs home. Still Maria tried to make the evening meal look appetizing: a taste of green soup, the occasional mushroom or two, a tiny portion of rat, bird, or fish, when available, and the crumbly, bitter-tasting slice of bread. If she ate slowly, and chewed each bite thirty times, she could almost convince herself it was a meal.

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