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  1. Cover
  2. Title
  3. Dedication
  4. Dedication2
  5. 1994
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  23. 2006
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  44. 2018
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  57. Acknowledgements

Greta moved her hand so that it was on Peggy’s thigh and moved it between her legs. Peggy didn’t take her eyes off the screen but shifted into Greta’s hand and moved her own hand up Greta’s skirt and inside her underwear. At first, always, it felt like it could happen or not – like they could take it or leave it. Sometimes they’d stop but mostly, if they got this far, they were probably not going to stop. Their faces were closer now because of the position of their hands, they’d moved their whole bodies and their faces were closer. They breathed open-mouthed on each other’s faces and as they slipped their hands inside each other they found ears, lips, tongues with their mouths. They shifted again, kneeling now, hands working, Peggy fighting to get her jeans off one-handed, while her other hand pushed Greta’s underwear off clumsily, never wanting to go too far from her vagina, which was warm and wet and calling her deeper and deeper inside. Two fingers in. Her thumb massaging everything else. Dizzy with the feeling of Greta and the feeling of Greta inside her – mirror-imaged in the swim of it. Wet mouth, wet everywhere. Exactly the same breasts under two different shirts, soft and sucked. They were lying beside each other before they knew it – both wanting so badly to taste the other and be tasted. And still they hadn’t seen each other – eyes closed, touch overwhelming sight. Beside each other. Both nestled in between the other’s legs. Boundaries completely gone. Slowing to make it last longer, then unable to keep it slow anymore. Hands inside, tongues inside, close and coming. And in that moment noticing each other – in a way that they didn’t at any other time – as two separate entities. And then it was gone, and they rolled onto their backs on the lounge floor as a bad joke was going on in the background, and looked at the ceiling. The other one was gone again. They had been separated just for that exact moment. Now they were one again, looking at the same ceiling and not saying another word to each other. Some nights they fell asleep when they came. When they woke up the next morning, wherever they were, they could smell themselves on their hands and they looked at the ceiling to get their bearings and one of them got up and had a shower and the other put two pieces of toast in the toaster because there weren’t any bagels.

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‘But won’t you help her?’ Greta and Peggy were looking at Heidi.

‘No,’ Heidi replied, and laughed.

‘But really,’ Greta said, not laughing. ‘You have to help her, don’t you?’