When you have a baby, every moment of levity is a blessing and I am not going to look a gift horse in the mouth. So I am running myself a hot bubble bath with all the luxuries, with no distractions or interruptions.

Anders asked us to be there about eight, so I have time to soak a little before I do anything else. I went to the hairdresser earlier in the day so my hair is clipped up in pin curls ready to be taken down at the perfect moment. Even that night over a year ago I didn’t take all this time. I showered and threw on the only dress I had. If I had known where the night would lead I probably would have taken more time to prepare. I’m not going to make that mistake twice, and tonight I am planning on ending the night with fireworks of my own.

I am planning on seducing my man tonight. Not that it will take much work, he has been obsessed with me since I got the okay from the doctor to have sex again. I can’t lie, I was worried he wouldn’t love my body after having Charlotte, but I think he is more obsessed now than before. Something about knowing I carried his child drives him wild. And everything we went through has bonded us closer together than I could have imagined.

I wouldn’t have it any other way; there is nothing more I want than to enter the new year in his arms.

By the time the water is cold I am shaved and scrubbed, ready to moisturise to make me velvety smooth. My dress for tonight is a new purchase; it’s a black Sixties shift dress with white feathers on the trim. Lyndsey said they highlighted my long legs and demanded I buy it or else. I wasn’t going to wait around to find out what she’d do to me.

Cassie also told everyone we had to look our best tonight because she’ll be sharing the New Year’s pictures online leading up to midnight. I’ve never been on the official Spears socials, so that should be interesting. I have been on Liam’s over the last few months, since the night with Michael at the arena, but this is different. Speculation over our relationship was rampant at first – or so I’m told. But like everything else, it quickly faded into the back of everyone’s minds. Perhaps more events and photos like today will further cement me as part of Spears life. Just another character in the online algorithm that fans accept.