I’ve learned how much she loves my praise, both in and out of the bedroom. She loves my relationship with Jack, but there are things she doesn’t like, too. She hates when I spend my money on her; something about feeling guilty about it. She also hates that I have no plans to stop spending my money on her – she will get used to it.

Probably.

Another thing I’ve learned is as much as my Sunshine has changed since college, there is so much that is the same. She could still commit a crime when she’s too hungry and she still has this intense focus on the things she cares about. In college she cared most about her studying and where our respective futures were heading. But right now, that’s changed. Her focus is her family. Our family.

My focus is the same. My wallet is filled with polaroids of Ellis’s bump, as well as shots of her and Jack together. For a while, my favourite picture was Ellis standing with a bouquet of flowers resting on her five-month bump, but now it’s a picture of Jack kissing her seven-month bump.

There are only eighteen days to go until the due date and Ellis is in full nesting mode. Every day she has a new piece of furniture delivered for me to put together. I love feeling useful. I have painted the nursery a lavender colour, then pink, then grey and back to lavender because Ellis couldn’t pick which she wanted.

When she walks into the nursery to see it coming together more every day, she gets this flushed glow and a shine in her eyes that makes me weak. She has me truly wrapped around her finger and I wouldn’t want it any other way.

That being said though, I can tell she is getting stir crazy. I’ve gotten less strict with her being bed bound and have given in to her begging to live a more normal life as long as she keeps herself safe and doesn’t put strain on her body.

See? I can compromise. From spending so much time lying around and scrolling, she has become a master at finding the best online deals including a spa day she has booked for her and Lyndsey. I told her they could go to any spa she wanted because money isn’t an issue. She didn’t love that and booked the deal she found anyway. She’s been excited for this day since she booked it, giving her something to look forward to that will make her feel more human as well as relaxing her before the baby comes.