My personal experience with Female Domination began in the early 1980’s while I was attending college. I frequented a pansexual support and educational group that dealt with Dominance and Submission (D&S) within personal relationships. My original purpose for attending a meeting of this D&S group was to do research for a paper on human sexuality. I will never forget how nervous I was and how uneasy I felt when I walked into that room for the first time. There were about thirty people present, of which twenty-five were men. I could feel every eye upon me, looking me over and checking me out. I persevered and by the time the night was over, I was beginning to feel comfortable. Since it was an introduction meeting for first-timers, nothing strange or out of the ordinary occurred. It was basically people of this D&S group explaining who they were and what they were about. My curiosity was peaked that night and I found this subject of D&S to be most fascinating.

There was a social time after the meeting and I mingled with some of the people, asking many questions. What I discovered was that the majority of these first-timers were men who wanted to be in the submissive role to a woman. Basically, they were in search of a woman who would dominate them sexually. Since it was a pan-sexual group, there were some self-proclaimed dominant men but most of the males present at this meeting wanted to be in the submissive role. I found this to be quite interesting. I was a so-called feminist and while I was hearing lectures in college on how women were struggling to gain equality in our society, here was a room full of men that did not want women to be their equals but rather their superiors.

I grew up in a traditional, male-dominated household, therefore I struggled with my upbringing and the patriarchal societal programming that had indoctrinated me since I was a little girl. I have always been a spiritual person, a Christian, who loves God and Jesus. While I am thankful for my religious upbringing in that it made me a God-conscience individual, the Catholic Church and its male dominated hierarchy force-fed me a theology that made me view my gender in an unflattering light. This was a major stumbling block for me as I tried to succeed in a so-called man’s world. Feminism appealed to me but I never did buy into the male hating dogma that so many of my female professors and some of my girlfriends preached. I liked men and I actually hung around more with boys than with girls. This was true in my childhood and this was true in college. I developed a love and a respect for the male gender but I also began to realize the male gender’s many weaknesses. I discovered that women possessed the superior intellect and a much higher moral character.