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Chapters (74)
  1. Cover
  2. Praise for Lynn Austin
  3. Also by Lynn Austin
  4. Epigraph
  5. PROLOGUE
  6. CHAPTER 1
  7. CHAPTER 2
  8. CHAPTER 3
  9. CHAPTER 4
  10. CHAPTER 5
  11. CHAPTER 6
  12. CHAPTER 7
  13. CHAPTER 8
  14. CHAPTER 9
  15. CHAPTER 10
  16. CHAPTER 11
  17. CHAPTER 12
  18. CHAPTER 13
  19. CHAPTER 14
  20. CHAPTER 15
  21. CHAPTER 16
  22. CHAPTER 17
  23. CHAPTER 18
  24. CHAPTER 19
  25. CHAPTER 20
  26. CHAPTER 21
  27. CHAPTER 22
  28. CHAPTER 23
  29. CHAPTER 24
  30. CHAPTER 25
  31. CHAPTER 26
  32. CHAPTER 27
  33. CHAPTER 28
  34. CHAPTER 29
  35. CHAPTER 30
  36. CHAPTER 31
  37. CHAPTER 32
  38. CHAPTER 33
  39. CHAPTER 34
  40. CHAPTER 35
  41. CHAPTER 36
  42. CHAPTER 37
  43. CHAPTER 38
  44. CHAPTER 39
  45. CHAPTER 40
  46. CHAPTER 41
  47. CHAPTER 42
  48. CHAPTER 43
  49. CHAPTER 44
  50. CHAPTER 45
  51. CHAPTER 46
  52. CHAPTER 47
  53. CHAPTER 48
  54. CHAPTER 49
  55. CHAPTER 50
  56. CHAPTER 51
  57. CHAPTER 52
  58. CHAPTER 53
  59. CHAPTER 54
  60. CHAPTER 55
  61. CHAPTER 56
  62. CHAPTER 57
  63. CHAPTER 58
  64. CHAPTER 59
  65. CHAPTER 60
  66. CHAPTER 61
  67. CHAPTER 62
  68. CHAPTER 63
  69. EPILOGUE
  70. CHAPTER 1
  71. A Note from the Author
  72. Acknowledgments
  73. Discussion Questions
  74. About the Author

Miriam began trembling again when they halted outside the farmhouse, an earthquake deep in her soul. Ans waved at the two men standing in the barn doorway. “That’s my papa and my brother, Wim.” She thanked the driver and helped Miriam from the truck. Miriam longed to run, but her legs could barely hold her. “This is Bep’s mother, Miriam Leopold,” Ans told her father.

“Bep’s playing out back. I’ll take you to her.” Ans and her father had to hold Miriam up as they walked through the barn and outside again. She saw a woman working in the garden and two girls playing nearby. The beautiful child with the long dark braids was her daughter.

“Bep, Lena, come here,” Ans’s father called.

“You must be Miriam. I’m Lena,” the woman said. “I’m so happy to see you!” Lena had tears in her eyes. Elisheva was holding the other girl’s hand as they walked over. Miriam knelt down to face her daughter.

“Elisheva . . . ,” she breathed. She ached to hold her, but Elisheva didn’t remember her.

Lena rested her hand on Elisheva’s back. “Bep, honey . . . this is your mother, from the photograph album. She’s here!”

“May I give you a hug?” Miriam asked. Her daughter looked up at Lena, and in a heartbeat, Lena knelt down and enfolded both of them in her arms, holding Elisheva between them so she wouldn’t be afraid. Her little body was warm and sweaty and alive. Miriam could feel her heartbeat. She inhaled the scent of the wind in her hair. Until the day she died, Miriam would never forget the exquisite joy of this moment.

With Lena’s patient help, Elisheva warmed up to Miriam in the hours that followed. Bep showed her the doll she’d received for a present and the clothes her sister Maaike had sewn for it. “What’s your doll’s name?” Miriam asked.

“Nollie. She sleeps with me.”

Miriam held Elisheva’s hand as she and her brother, Wim, gave a tour of the farm and all the animals. Miriam couldn’t take her eyes off her child. She especially loved hearing her laugh. She had Avi’s wonderful smile. He would always be with Miriam in their daughter’s smile.

Miriam slept on a mattress in Elisheva’s bedroom that night to be near her. And so she could gaze at her in the moonlight and watch her sleep. She was alive. She was real. They were together again. Miriam helped her dress in the morning and brushed and braided her hair. Each simple act was a gift.