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Chapters (74)
  1. Cover
  2. Praise for Lynn Austin
  3. Also by Lynn Austin
  4. Epigraph
  5. PROLOGUE
  6. CHAPTER 1
  7. CHAPTER 2
  8. CHAPTER 3
  9. CHAPTER 4
  10. CHAPTER 5
  11. CHAPTER 6
  12. CHAPTER 7
  13. CHAPTER 8
  14. CHAPTER 9
  15. CHAPTER 10
  16. CHAPTER 11
  17. CHAPTER 12
  18. CHAPTER 13
  19. CHAPTER 14
  20. CHAPTER 15
  21. CHAPTER 16
  22. CHAPTER 17
  23. CHAPTER 18
  24. CHAPTER 19
  25. CHAPTER 20
  26. CHAPTER 21
  27. CHAPTER 22
  28. CHAPTER 23
  29. CHAPTER 24
  30. CHAPTER 25
  31. CHAPTER 26
  32. CHAPTER 27
  33. CHAPTER 28
  34. CHAPTER 29
  35. CHAPTER 30
  36. CHAPTER 31
  37. CHAPTER 32
  38. CHAPTER 33
  39. CHAPTER 34
  40. CHAPTER 35
  41. CHAPTER 36
  42. CHAPTER 37
  43. CHAPTER 38
  44. CHAPTER 39
  45. CHAPTER 40
  46. CHAPTER 41
  47. CHAPTER 42
  48. CHAPTER 43
  49. CHAPTER 44
  50. CHAPTER 45
  51. CHAPTER 46
  52. CHAPTER 47
  53. CHAPTER 48
  54. CHAPTER 49
  55. CHAPTER 50
  56. CHAPTER 51
  57. CHAPTER 52
  58. CHAPTER 53
  59. CHAPTER 54
  60. CHAPTER 55
  61. CHAPTER 56
  62. CHAPTER 57
  63. CHAPTER 58
  64. CHAPTER 59
  65. CHAPTER 60
  66. CHAPTER 61
  67. CHAPTER 62
  68. CHAPTER 63
  69. EPILOGUE
  70. CHAPTER 1
  71. A Note from the Author
  72. Acknowledgments
  73. Discussion Questions
  74. About the Author

After a while Mama asked, “Have you thought about your future plans now that the Nazis have surrendered?”

“I think I’ll need time to get used to freedom first.” Ans smiled. “When I moved to Leiden, I was so naive. I didn’t know anything about myself or what I wanted to do with my life. The war has taught me so much about God and people —and about myself. I know those experiences have shaped me and changed me . . . I’m just not quite sure what it all means for my future yet.”

“Before you left home and we were arguing so much, I went to Opa for advice. He told me that your stubbornness and your strong will might be your greatest asset one day. I see now how right he was.”

Ans laughed and hugged her mama. “Have you heard anything from Elisheva’s parents?” Mama asked.

A wellspring of sorrow opened in Ans’s heart at the thought of Miriam and Avi. “No, but I haven’t lost hope.”

“I’ve been showing her the photographs of her family.” She gestured to the album on the table next to Ans. “I’ve been trying to prepare her . . . but for what, I don’t know. It’s going to be hard to let her go. One more loss to grieve. She’s my beloved daughter —but she isn’t.”

“It will be hard for her, too. You’re the only mother she remembers.” Ans reached for the photograph album and opened it, leafing through the pages. She found the letter Miriam had written to Lena and the one she’d addressed to Elisheva. “Have you read this to her?” Ans asked.

“No. Not yet.”

“Maybe it’s time.”

Mama drew a deep breath as if for courage, then nodded. “Bep, honey, come here for a minute. I want us to read this letter together.” The girl played a few more notes, then slid off the bench to sit on Lena’s lap, leaning comfortably against her shoulder. “It’s from your mother, the one you had before you came to us. Remember how the baby rabbits grew inside their mama? Well, you grew inside this mother that way.”

“I knew your mother,” Ans said. “I remember when you were still in her tummy, and I saw you when you were first born. They named you Elisheva —it means ‘God’s promise.’ Your mother and father loved you very, very much. They were so sad when they couldn’t take care of you anymore. I’m the one who brought you here to stay with this mama and papa for a while.”

Lena opened the envelope and pulled out Miriam’s letter.