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Chapters (74)
  1. Cover
  2. Praise for Lynn Austin
  3. Also by Lynn Austin
  4. Epigraph
  5. PROLOGUE
  6. CHAPTER 1
  7. CHAPTER 2
  8. CHAPTER 3
  9. CHAPTER 4
  10. CHAPTER 5
  11. CHAPTER 6
  12. CHAPTER 7
  13. CHAPTER 8
  14. CHAPTER 9
  15. CHAPTER 10
  16. CHAPTER 11
  17. CHAPTER 12
  18. CHAPTER 13
  19. CHAPTER 14
  20. CHAPTER 15
  21. CHAPTER 16
  22. CHAPTER 17
  23. CHAPTER 18
  24. CHAPTER 19
  25. CHAPTER 20
  26. CHAPTER 21
  27. CHAPTER 22
  28. CHAPTER 23
  29. CHAPTER 24
  30. CHAPTER 25
  31. CHAPTER 26
  32. CHAPTER 27
  33. CHAPTER 28
  34. CHAPTER 29
  35. CHAPTER 30
  36. CHAPTER 31
  37. CHAPTER 32
  38. CHAPTER 33
  39. CHAPTER 34
  40. CHAPTER 35
  41. CHAPTER 36
  42. CHAPTER 37
  43. CHAPTER 38
  44. CHAPTER 39
  45. CHAPTER 40
  46. CHAPTER 41
  47. CHAPTER 42
  48. CHAPTER 43
  49. CHAPTER 44
  50. CHAPTER 45
  51. CHAPTER 46
  52. CHAPTER 47
  53. CHAPTER 48
  54. CHAPTER 49
  55. CHAPTER 50
  56. CHAPTER 51
  57. CHAPTER 52
  58. CHAPTER 53
  59. CHAPTER 54
  60. CHAPTER 55
  61. CHAPTER 56
  62. CHAPTER 57
  63. CHAPTER 58
  64. CHAPTER 59
  65. CHAPTER 60
  66. CHAPTER 61
  67. CHAPTER 62
  68. CHAPTER 63
  69. EPILOGUE
  70. CHAPTER 1
  71. A Note from the Author
  72. Acknowledgments
  73. Discussion Questions
  74. About the Author

Ans hadn’t had much time to rehearse her story while she’d waited in the first cell, but she knew from her underground training in Leiden how important every detail was. She kept her head lowered, playing the part of a simple farm maid, while the paperwork was completed. The Gestapo officer waited as well, a fox watching his prey. Ans was led to another room when her papers were complete and was told to remove all of her clothes in front of the guards and the waiting Gestapo officer. She wept in spite of her resolve not to. When they finished their thorough, humiliating search, they gave her back her underwear and a shapeless prison gown.

“Come with me, Bernandina,” the fox-faced Gestapo officer said in Dutch after she dressed. He led her into a tiny windowless room, no bigger than a closet, and told her to sit down on the only chair. He stood above her. “Why are you breaking curfew, bitte?”

“Because I —”

“Ah, ah, ah . . . look at me when you speak, bitte.”

Ans lifted her face. He would see that her fear was genuine. Would he also see that some of what she was about to tell him were lies? She needed to keep her answers simple and short to convince him that she was a naive, guileless maid. “Because I was riding my bicycle home from an errand in Bodegraven and —”

“What was your errand?”

She gave the reply she’d rehearsed in the jail cell. “Shoes. I needed new shoes.” She pointed to her blistered feet and worn-out boots. They hadn’t given her time to put them back on after they’d pulled out the laces and searched them thoroughly.

“Where are the new shoes?”

“I didn’t buy any.”

“So you came to Woerden? To search for shoes after curfew?”

“No, I-I —”

“Wouldn’t it make sense to come to Woerden first before going all the way to Bodegraven? They sell shoes here, too.”

“It was my day off. I wanted to get away —”

“Tell me why you were out after curfew.”

“Two soldiers stopped me and stole my bike. I begged them not to. I knew I couldn’t get back to the farm in time, but they —”

“Who owns this farm where you live?”

“The Dykstras. I work there as a maid.”

“Yet you came to Woerden instead of going home?”

“I couldn’t walk home in the dark.”

“Who were you going to stay with?”

“I-I didn’t know. We bring milk to a dairy here. They know me. I-I thought maybe with them.” That much was also true. The Gestapo could check with the dairyman. Ans had avoided giving any names or addresses of her underground contacts or safe houses. “I would have been home on time if they hadn’t stolen my bike!”