Chapters (60)
- Cover
- Books by Sheryl Browne
- Dedication
- KARLA
- One
- Two
- Three
- Four
- Five
- Six
- Seven
- Eight
- Nine
- Ten
- Eleven
- Twelve
- Thirteen
- Fourteen
- Fifteen
- Sixteen
- Seventeen
- Eighteen
- Nineteen
- Twenty
- Twenty-One
- Twenty-Two
- Twenty-Three
- Twenty-Four
- Twenty-Five
- Twenty-Six
- Twenty-Seven
- Twenty-Eight
- Twenty-Nine
- Thirty
- Thirty-One
- Thirty-Two
- Thirty-Three
- Thirty-Four
- Thirty-Five
- Thirty-Six
- Thirty-Seven
- Thirty-Eight
- Thirty-Nine
- Forty
- Forty-One
- Forty-Two
- Forty-Three
- Forty-Four
- Forty-Five
- Forty-Six
- Forty-Seven
- Forty-Eight
- Epilogue
- The Affair
- Hear more from Sheryl
- Books by Sheryl Browne
- A Letter from Sheryl
- The Babysitter
- The Second Wife
- Acknowledgements
Hearing him saying hello to his sister on the phone in the bedroom, I head onwards, only to stop again as his mobile beeps atop the hall table. Mark calling with a progress report, I wonder. My gaze flicking to the stairs, I hesitate for a second and then pick it up to check his messages – and my stomach turns over. Too stunned even to breathe, I stare – confused, at first, and then disbelieving at what I glean is a profile photograph. A sexually explicit photograph: a near-naked, voluptuous woman with her breasts spilling out. On my husband’s phone? I almost laugh at the absurdity of it, and then work to control the explosion of bewildered emotion inside me.
It’s a mistake, I tell myself. Some random message sent by… Who? Why? My mouth dry, I check the stairs again, and then brace myself to thumb up through the preceding messages.
Fill me in tomorrow, Jason’s last text reads. Cheers for your efforts, mate. I owe you.
My hands trembling, my senses reeling, I scroll up to the next.
And my heart stops dead. Lucky git. Has she got a sister? Jason had asked.
My blood turns to ice as I realise he’s actually scored her. Ten out of ten. Nausea churning my stomach, I squeeze my eyes closed. Dimly, I register Jason ending his phone call upstairs.
‘I’ll drop by next week,’ he tells Hannah. ‘Sorry I can’t stop. I’m due in the office.’
Is he? I swallow back the parched lump in my throat. Is it really his office he’s so eager to get to? Where he’s been going all these weekends? Is it even his actual sister he’s talking to?
It is. I heard him. ‘Hi, Hannah,’ he’d greeted her. They talk occasionally on the phone but don’t see each other often enough. They drifted apart after the family split up. I’m reminded of the fact that Jason’s childhood wasn’t a good one. That his adoptive parents stayed together until being together became intolerable. That they were both unhappy, his mother desperately so, because his father cheated. My father cheats. Do all men fucking well cheat? My fury surfaces, white-hot, rising inside me.
Breathing in hard through my nostrils, I try to dampen it down. I have to stay in control. Inhaling another long breath, I exit his messages and place the phone back.
Attempting some level of outward calm, I fix my smile in place and, though the strength seems to have drained from my body, force myself on to the kitchen. He hasn’t done anything, I try to reassure myself, other than indulge in immature chat. Yet. My sluggish heartbeat drums a prophetic warning in my chest. He’s toying with the idea though, isn’t he?