Chapters (60)
- Cover
- Books by Sheryl Browne
- Dedication
- KARLA
- One
- Two
- Three
- Four
- Five
- Six
- Seven
- Eight
- Nine
- Ten
- Eleven
- Twelve
- Thirteen
- Fourteen
- Fifteen
- Sixteen
- Seventeen
- Eighteen
- Nineteen
- Twenty
- Twenty-One
- Twenty-Two
- Twenty-Three
- Twenty-Four
- Twenty-Five
- Twenty-Six
- Twenty-Seven
- Twenty-Eight
- Twenty-Nine
- Thirty
- Thirty-One
- Thirty-Two
- Thirty-Three
- Thirty-Four
- Thirty-Five
- Thirty-Six
- Thirty-Seven
- Thirty-Eight
- Thirty-Nine
- Forty
- Forty-One
- Forty-Two
- Forty-Three
- Forty-Four
- Forty-Five
- Forty-Six
- Forty-Seven
- Forty-Eight
- Epilogue
- The Affair
- Hear more from Sheryl
- Books by Sheryl Browne
- A Letter from Sheryl
- The Babysitter
- The Second Wife
- Acknowledgements
He nods, runs a hand over his face. ‘The kids,’ he says. ‘I just want to do what’s best for them. I don’t want to upset them.’
Ha! Now I really want to laugh, until I break down and cry. But I won’t. I will do something at which I am well practised. I will detach from the emotion – from this, the most painful moment of my life. I will focus my energies on the fight, because I will fight for my marriage. Even though the battle might already be lost, I won’t give in easily. I will make him want me.
‘Stay,’ I say impassively. ‘For now.’
I feel my husband’s surprised gaze following me as I walk calmly past him to the hall. ‘It’s different, Jason,’ I call back, as I mount the stairs to cry my tears in private. ‘As birthday surprises go, it’s definitely different.’
Twenty-Three
JASON
Jason watched the display on the clock clicking over the hours before he finally fell asleep. He slept heavily, dark and dream-filled, until he woke with a start. Sure he’d heard a crash in the kitchen below, he scrambled out of bed and headed downstairs. He was aware that the reception he would get from Karla would be cool. She’d barely spoken to him in the week he’d been home. She wasn’t likely to want to speak to him, given the circumstances, but he was concerned – for her, for the effect all this would have on their children.
Going into the kitchen, he found things were far from the usual organised chaos of a school morning. Karla was still in her dressing gown, picking up pieces of what appeared to be a broken plate from the floor, and Holly looked far from happy, slumped disgruntledly at the breakfast table.
‘I don’t even like honey,’ she moaned, curling a lip as she leaned in to pluck the spoon from the jar and watch the golden gloop drip from it.
‘Ugh, looks like snot.’ Josh, who was also still in his nightwear, looked up from his iPad to observe.
‘Holly…’ Sighing, Karla straightened up and pressed a hand to her forehead. ‘Just eat your toast, sweetheart, will you?’
Holly flopped heavily back in her chair. ‘I don’t like toast,’ she scowled. ‘It’s burnt. Why can’t we have porridge? We always have porridge in the—’
‘Because there’s no milk!’ Karla snapped, and then, remorse flooding her face, she turned quickly away. ‘Eat your breakfast, please,’ she said, her voice strained, as she pushed the broken pieces of crockery into the bin.