Chapters (60)
- Cover
- Books by Sheryl Browne
- Dedication
- KARLA
- One
- Two
- Three
- Four
- Five
- Six
- Seven
- Eight
- Nine
- Ten
- Eleven
- Twelve
- Thirteen
- Fourteen
- Fifteen
- Sixteen
- Seventeen
- Eighteen
- Nineteen
- Twenty
- Twenty-One
- Twenty-Two
- Twenty-Three
- Twenty-Four
- Twenty-Five
- Twenty-Six
- Twenty-Seven
- Twenty-Eight
- Twenty-Nine
- Thirty
- Thirty-One
- Thirty-Two
- Thirty-Three
- Thirty-Four
- Thirty-Five
- Thirty-Six
- Thirty-Seven
- Thirty-Eight
- Thirty-Nine
- Forty
- Forty-One
- Forty-Two
- Forty-Three
- Forty-Four
- Forty-Five
- Forty-Six
- Forty-Seven
- Forty-Eight
- Epilogue
- The Affair
- Hear more from Sheryl
- Books by Sheryl Browne
- A Letter from Sheryl
- The Babysitter
- The Second Wife
- Acknowledgements
Stepping inside his partially open door, my gaze goes instinctively to his bed and I stop dead. The duvet is thrown back and tangled. There’s a soft hollow in his pillow, an empty space where my little boy’s body should be. My eyes shoot to his bedside table, my panic subsiding a little as I realise his glasses are there. His iPad, too. He wouldn’t go far without either of those. He’s with Jason. Has to be. Backing out, I turn on my heel and fly to the main bedroom.
Please let him be there. Please, God, let him be there. My heart battering against my chest and terrifying scenarios screaming in my head – my ten-year-old son, wandering the cold, unfriendly streets on his own – I press down the door handle, and then I start breathing again. Relief flooding through me, I move quietly towards the bed. My husband is lying on his back, one arm thrown across his forehead. Tucked safely in the crook of his other arm is Josh, sleeping soundly, his head pressed against his father’s chest, listening to the reassuring thrum of his heartbeat. As I so often did, feeling secure and needed and wanted.
Was that really such a short while ago?
I won’t let him go. Can’t allow him to. I have to make Jason see that, whatever it is he craves, whatever he thinks is missing in his life, he will find it right here, with his family. As long as we have each other we can survive. We can do more than survive; we can fly, if only I can open his eyes.