Chapters (84)
- Cover
- Dedication
- The Lost Daughter
- Prologue
- Chapter 1
- Chapter 2
- Chapter 3
- Chapter 4
- Chapter 5
- Chapter 6
- Chapter 7
- Chapter 8
- Chapter 9
- Chapter 10
- Chapter 11
- Chapter 12
- Chapter 13
- Chapter 14
- Chapter 15
- Chapter 16
- Chapter 17
- Chapter 18
- Chapter 19
- Chapter 20
- Chapter 21
- Chapter 22
- Chapter 23
- Chapter 24
- Chapter 25
- Chapter 26
- Chapter 27
- Chapter 28
- Chapter 29
- Chapter 30
- Chapter 31
- Chapter 32
- Chapter 33
- Chapter 34
- Chapter 35
- Chapter 36
- Chapter 37
- Chapter 38
- Chapter 39
- Chapter 40
- Chapter 41
- Chapter 42
- Chapter 43
- Chapter 44
- Chapter 45
- Chapter 46
- Chapter 47
- Chapter 48
- Chapter 49
- Chapter 50
- Chapter 51
- Chapter 52
- Chapter 53
- Chapter 54
- Chapter 55
- Chapter 56
- Chapter 57
- Chapter 58
- Chapter 59
- Chapter 60
- Chapter 61
- Chapter 62
- Chapter 63
- Chapter 64
- Chapter 65
- Epilogue
- Acknowledgments
- An Excerpt from JACKIE AND MARIA
- Chapter 1
- Chapter 2
- P.S. Insights, Interviews & More . . .*
- About the Author
- About the Book
- Historical Afterword
- Sources
- The Love Lives of the Romanov Daughters
- Reading Group Questions
- Praise for The Lost Daughter
- By Gill Paul
- About the Publisher
MARIA’S WOUNDS HEALED WITHOUT BECOMING INFECTED and her body grew stronger, so that before long she was able to walk short distances using a walking stick Peter had fashioned. It was painful to lift anything or to turn at the waist, but she could wash herself and scrub the worst of the bloodstains from her gown in a freezing spring that gushed from the mountainside. Peter roasted rabbits and birds he had caught in homemade traps, and Maria gnawed the meat from the bones, suddenly ravenous. He made delicious tisanes from mountain herbs and soups from mushrooms he had foraged, and every day he brought bowlfuls of fruits of deep red, blue, and black hues: wild strawberries, cloudberries, and crowberries, he told her, as she devoured them.
While he spent his days gathering food, Maria wandered close to their camp engulfed in a thick fog of grief. She was becoming sick of the continuous crying that left her with no air to breathe, crying that came from a place deeper inside than she had imagined possible, but she couldn’t stop herself. The sight of a tiny bird pecking at the grass; a pretty flower nestled in the roots of an ancient tree; everything seemed to spark a memory of her family and set her off again. She tried to keep her tears from Peter now. It wasn’t fair for him to witness such misery, hour after hour. He had done his best by rescuing her and it wasn’t his fault that she wished she had died along with her sisters.
In the evenings, they talked. He told her he had learned his hunting skills from his gamekeeper father, and his knowledge of herbal medicines had been passed down from his mother’s grandmother.
“The estate where I grew up was a wonderful place to spend a childhood,” he said, “but I always knew my place. The children of the landowner would turn away when I passed because I was not of their class.”
Maria felt ashamed. Had she ever averted her eyes when she saw a child from a poor family? She didn’t think so. A memory flashed to mind of a time when they were traveling in their open-topped automobile through the countryside and saw a beggar girl by the roadside. Olga had been playing with a china-faced doll in a lace-trimmed gown but on a whim she threw it out the window to the poor bedraggled girl, who looked bemused as she picked it up. Maria remembered that look of puzzlement. Perhaps the child had never owned a doll before and did not know what to do with it. Perhaps she would have preferred food.
She asked Peter about his sister, and heard that she worked as a seamstress and had two children and a husband who, like Peter, had worked at the Makarov cloth factory.
“Why did you not remain on the estate and follow in your father’s footsteps?” she asked.