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Chapters (84)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. The Lost Daughter
  4. Prologue
  5. Chapter 1
  6. Chapter 2
  7. Chapter 3
  8. Chapter 4
  9. Chapter 5
  10. Chapter 6
  11. Chapter 7
  12. Chapter 8
  13. Chapter 9
  14. Chapter 10
  15. Chapter 11
  16. Chapter 12
  17. Chapter 13
  18. Chapter 14
  19. Chapter 15
  20. Chapter 16
  21. Chapter 17
  22. Chapter 18
  23. Chapter 19
  24. Chapter 20
  25. Chapter 21
  26. Chapter 22
  27. Chapter 23
  28. Chapter 24
  29. Chapter 25
  30. Chapter 26
  31. Chapter 27
  32. Chapter 28
  33. Chapter 29
  34. Chapter 30
  35. Chapter 31
  36. Chapter 32
  37. Chapter 33
  38. Chapter 34
  39. Chapter 35
  40. Chapter 36
  41. Chapter 37
  42. Chapter 38
  43. Chapter 39
  44. Chapter 40
  45. Chapter 41
  46. Chapter 42
  47. Chapter 43
  48. Chapter 44
  49. Chapter 45
  50. Chapter 46
  51. Chapter 47
  52. Chapter 48
  53. Chapter 49
  54. Chapter 50
  55. Chapter 51
  56. Chapter 52
  57. Chapter 53
  58. Chapter 54
  59. Chapter 55
  60. Chapter 56
  61. Chapter 57
  62. Chapter 58
  63. Chapter 59
  64. Chapter 60
  65. Chapter 61
  66. Chapter 62
  67. Chapter 63
  68. Chapter 64
  69. Chapter 65
  70. Epilogue
  71. Acknowledgments
  72. An Excerpt from JACKIE AND MARIA
  73. Chapter 1
  74. Chapter 2
  75. P.S. Insights, Interviews & More . . .*
  76. About the Author
  77. About the Book
  78. Historical Afterword
  79. Sources
  80. The Love Lives of the Romanov Daughters
  81. Reading Group Questions
  82. Praise for The Lost Daughter
  83. By Gill Paul
  84. About the Publisher

Hitler had not arrived in the city by August, but neither was there any sign of the siege breaking. “We can’t last another winter,” Maria’s work colleagues whispered to each other, memories of the bodies in the streets and the unremitting cold still fresh in their minds. Maria remembered Peter telling her that you could predict the severity of a forthcoming winter by the size of the pinecones and the thickness of squirrels’ nests, but she could not decide whether they were bigger or smaller than normal.

A universal gloom descended when the first frost came in October, followed closely by a blustery storm. Maria was scared. When she washed herself in the bathroom, she could see that the skin was stretched tight over her bones. Her kneecaps looked huge, and flaps of wrinkled skin hung off her thighs. It hurt to sit on a stool because there was no flesh left on her bottom. She never looked at her face in a mirror, but knew she must be a sight: four teeth had loosened and fallen out while she was eating, and her hair came away in handfuls when she combed it. She was only forty-three years old, but she didn’t know if she could survive another winter.

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On October 31, when Maria set off for work the pavement was glistening like diamonds in the predawn light. Her boots had worn through and the cardboard insoles she’d made provided little insulation, so her feet were frozen numb soon after she left home. Even wrapped in her heavy overcoat and thick wool hat, she never felt warm these days.

It was several weeks since she had managed to visit Peter’s grave, and she missed the peacefulness she found there when she talked to him in her head. She resolved to go soon. She’d been putting it off because she didn’t feel strong enough, but maybe she would manage if she walked slowly and stopped for lots of rests.

Suddenly she lost her footing on a patch of ice and slipped. She twisted around, scrabbling to catch hold of a railing, and her right leg bent underneath her. There was a sickening crack as she landed on the pavement and she knew straightaway that her thigh was broken. There was no pain at first, just a sensation of deadness, a feeling that her lower half was at the wrong angle. She lay panting, scared to move in case she made it worse. Her first thought was of that nice soldier who had helped her home before. Where was he now? Stepan was at work, and so was Irina. Galina was taking Yelena to line up for bread, but they would go in the opposite direction. It was quiet along the road where she lay, but someone must pass before long.