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Chapters (84)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. The Lost Daughter
  4. Prologue
  5. Chapter 1
  6. Chapter 2
  7. Chapter 3
  8. Chapter 4
  9. Chapter 5
  10. Chapter 6
  11. Chapter 7
  12. Chapter 8
  13. Chapter 9
  14. Chapter 10
  15. Chapter 11
  16. Chapter 12
  17. Chapter 13
  18. Chapter 14
  19. Chapter 15
  20. Chapter 16
  21. Chapter 17
  22. Chapter 18
  23. Chapter 19
  24. Chapter 20
  25. Chapter 21
  26. Chapter 22
  27. Chapter 23
  28. Chapter 24
  29. Chapter 25
  30. Chapter 26
  31. Chapter 27
  32. Chapter 28
  33. Chapter 29
  34. Chapter 30
  35. Chapter 31
  36. Chapter 32
  37. Chapter 33
  38. Chapter 34
  39. Chapter 35
  40. Chapter 36
  41. Chapter 37
  42. Chapter 38
  43. Chapter 39
  44. Chapter 40
  45. Chapter 41
  46. Chapter 42
  47. Chapter 43
  48. Chapter 44
  49. Chapter 45
  50. Chapter 46
  51. Chapter 47
  52. Chapter 48
  53. Chapter 49
  54. Chapter 50
  55. Chapter 51
  56. Chapter 52
  57. Chapter 53
  58. Chapter 54
  59. Chapter 55
  60. Chapter 56
  61. Chapter 57
  62. Chapter 58
  63. Chapter 59
  64. Chapter 60
  65. Chapter 61
  66. Chapter 62
  67. Chapter 63
  68. Chapter 64
  69. Chapter 65
  70. Epilogue
  71. Acknowledgments
  72. An Excerpt from JACKIE AND MARIA
  73. Chapter 1
  74. Chapter 2
  75. P.S. Insights, Interviews & More . . .*
  76. About the Author
  77. About the Book
  78. Historical Afterword
  79. Sources
  80. The Love Lives of the Romanov Daughters
  81. Reading Group Questions
  82. Praise for The Lost Daughter
  83. By Gill Paul
  84. About the Publisher

“Ask the boss if you can have more holidays. Tell them your wife insists,” she said.

Peter rolled his eyes. “I’ll send a telegram to General Secretary Stalin. I’m sure he’ll understand.”

He was accepted as a shock worker and part of their reward was an apartment with three bedrooms on the second floor of the same block. It felt like a palace: the boys slept in one room, the girls in another, and Peter and Maria in the third, so they had a little more privacy. They received coupons for new winter coats and valenkie, the cozy felt boots that were worn under galoshes on snowy days, as well as trousers, skirts, and shirts. Peter worked longer shifts, though; it used to be four days on, one day off, but now it was six days on before the day off. Maria felt his absence keenly, but he reacted with his usual equanimity.

“I’m happy as I am,” he said, and she knew it was true. His family was the center of his world and he would have done anything for her or any of their children.

In early 1931, Maria was careless over the dates on which they made love, half thinking she was too old to get pregnant at the age of thirty-one and half wanting another baby. Within a few weeks she knew she was expecting again, a baby who would be her sixth child, the fifth living one. Yelena was a round little dumpling, the biggest of her babies, with chubby cheeks and bracelets of fat at her wrists. There was no question that she was healthy. She greeted each morning with a cheery smile and beamed at strangers in the street. “What a lovely baby,” they said, and Maria glowed with pride.

Peter doted on the little one, whispering to her, bringing out the wooden toys he had made for the others, writing another letter to his mother and sister with no return address, but in private he said to Maria, “I think five is enough, sweetheart. Don’t you?” and she had to agree.

As she fed Yelena, it came to her in a flash of insight that she had subconsciously re-created the family she had lost: that had consisted of four girls and one boy, whereas she had three and two. Perhaps the idea had been buried in the back of her mind all along.

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One evening, while Maria was bathing the baby, there was a sharp knock on the door. She wrapped Yelena in a towel and went to open it. One of the local Party bosses and his sidekick—an unpleasant pair if ever there was one—were standing in the hallway.

“Citizen Dubova,” the boss said, glancing coldly at the wriggling baby, “we have heard a report that you keep a card index of citizens’ private details and we wish to examine it.”

“Why?” She was puzzled. “Have you lost a family member?”