Chapters (93)
- Cover
- Dedication
- One
- Two
- Three
- Four
- Five
- Six
- Seven
- Eight
- Nine
- Ten
- Eleven
- Twelve
- Thirteen
- Fourteen
- Fifteen
- Sixteen
- Seventeen
- Eighteen
- Nineteen
- Twenty
- Twenty-One
- Twenty-Two
- Twenty-Three
- Twenty-Four
- Twenty-Five
- Twenty-Six
- Twenty-Seven
- Twenty-Eight
- Twenty-Nine
- Thirty
- Thirty-One
- Thirty-Two
- Thirty-Three
- Thirty-Four
- Thirty-Five
- Thirty-Six
- Thirty-Seven
- Thirty-Eight
- Thirty-Nine
- Forty
- Forty-One
- Forty-Two
- Forty-Three
- Forty-Four
- Forty-Five
- Forty-Six
- Forty-Seven
- Forty-Eight
- Forty-Nine
- Fifty
- Fifty-One
- Fifty-Two
- Fifty-Three
- Fifty-Four
- Fifty-Five
- Fifty-Six
- Fifty-Seven
- Fifty-Eight
- Fifty-Nine
- Sixty
- Sixty-One
- Sixty-Two
- Sixty-Three
- Sixty-Four
- Sixty-Five
- Sixty-Six
- Sixty-Seven
- Sixty-Eight
- Sixty-Nine
- Seventy
- Seventy-One
- Seventy-Two
- Seventy-Three
- Seventy-Four
- Seventy-Five
- Seventy-Six
- Seventy-Seven
- Seventy-Eight
- Seventy-Nine
- Eighty
- Eighty-One
- Eighty-Two
- Eighty-Three
- Eighty-Four
- Eighty-Five
- Author’s Note
- Acknowledgments
- About the Author
- Books by Kelly Yang
- Back Ad
- About the Publisher
Mr. Connelly crosses his arms. “I just want to make sure your head’s in the right place, that’s all,” he says. “That is, if you still care about going to Snider. . . .”
“Of course I care about Snider,” I erupt. I steady my hands on the table.
“Then why are you wasting your time playing footsy with Junior?” he mutters under his breath.
I stare at him. I can’t believe he just said that, almost like he’s jealous. It’s so patronizing. At the same time, all I can think about is the way he’s looking at me, the sag of his shoulders as he shakes his head, like he’d picked the wrong racehorse. I pick up my backpack and slide out of my seat, the emotions unraveling inside me.
“I’m sorry, I have to go,” I say.
I push open the classroom door and walk out into the hall. The chaos of seven hundred famished kids greets me, all headed to lunch. I scan the sea of heads, looking for Ming.
My phone dings in my bag.
I’m sorry, Mr. Connelly writes.
I don’t respond.
Dani, are you there? I know you read that.
Dot dot dot.
I’m really sorry. I lost my mind back there, he writes. Will you forgive me?
I stare at the words.
Dani, please. Say something, he writes.
I feel a pang in my chest.
I just want to see you succeed. I care about you. I don’t want you to throw your future away for some guy.
I swallow the knot in my throat as I text back, I’m not throwing my future away for any guy.
Three more dots.
Good, he writes.
Twenty-Five
Claire
I stare at Jay in English class, a smile playing at my lips. He sits three rows in front of me, slouching in his seat. Even the way he slouches is sexy. Stop it. I remind myself I’ll be switching out of Mr. Harvey’s class soon. Although maybe staying wouldn’t be so terrible. Stop.
Ms. Jones, our substitute, is teaching us about “the hero’s journey.” It’s this concept in creative writing, and I can’t help but compare it to my own journey to America. How I rejected the call at first, but then I crossed over into the unfamiliar. And now I’m meeting people and going through all these little trials and tribulations before finally proving myself.
“And eventually, in the hero’s journey, your protagonist will face the ultimate challenge, which will test what he or she is really made of,” Ms. Jones explains, “in order to take back control of their life.”
I repeat the line in my head and smile. I wish we could have Ms. Jones every day.
After class, I unlock my phone. There’s an email from Mrs. Mandalay.
Dear Claire,