Chapters (67)
- Cover
- Note to Reader
- Dedication
- I
- Murano
- Bubbles
- Vessels
- A Peacock in a Cage
- At the Fishhouses
- When It Is Over, It Will Be Over
- Letter from the Pribilofs
- II. Go West
- You’re
- Mae West: Advice
- Marriage
- Censored
- Freedom
- Go West
- The New Woman
- Mae West: On Aging
- “Celebrity” Striptease at Southern X-Posure
- Confessional
- Self-Portrait as Mae West One-Liner
- Never
- Prayer
- Envoi
- III
- W.C. Fields Takes a Walk
- Philip Larkin’s Koan
- Once
- Saturdays at Reynolds Work Release
- Olive Oatman in Texas
- Assemblage of Ruined Plane Parts, Vietnam Military Museum, Hanoi
- IV. Shooting the Skulls: A Wartime Devotional
- Portrait of F19: Male, 42 Years Old
- Portrait of D6: Male, 38 Years Old
- F21: Male, 37 Years Old
- Devotional
- Devotional
- Portrait of F11: Female, 39 Years Old
- F20: Male, 29 Years Old
- Portrait of D19: Male, 41 Years Old
- Portrait of D17: Female, 37 Years Old
- C18: Male, 36 Years Old
- Devotional
- Devotional
- Portrait of E4: Male, 34 Years Old
- Devotional
- Devotional
- C2: Male, 42 Years Old
- Portrait of E20: Female, 32 Years Old
- C11: Female, 54 Years Old
- Portrait of B4: Female, 34 Years Old
- Portrait of C8: Male, 32 Years Old
- V
- Baucis and Philemon
- Rhetoric
- Irises
- Monticello Vase
- Birthday Poem
- Mortal Love
- The History of Paisley
- Notes
- About the Author
- Also by Paisley Rekdal
- Acknowledgments
- Special Thanks
wing where my cousin worked. Before that?
Showers of sparks launched through a green night:
desert volleys from the nuclear submarine
this same cousin commands. Now I stand
by a stranger’s cranium missing
its braincase: clods of crumpled foils unearthed,
scorched papers, the thin nugget of a filling—
My eye twitches, blurs. Before I know it,
tears startle my fingers.
Portrait of F11: Female, 39 Years Old
PORTRAIT OF F11: FEMALE, 39 YEARS OLD
for Lynndie England
Unhooded for its shot—a burlap sack—
this skull seems more denuded, its oval ear
canal so delicate, I long to stick
a finger there, to wiggle, poke, and hear
the lambdoid suture crack. Would this cheekbone,
if I struck it, smash? I finger grooves
where vessels plumped the skin. What fun
to imagine how my thumbs might soothe
or stop blood’s flow. What sparks of pain, what groans
I’d make, the fragile joins rubbed, crushed
till a cry’s released: a name, a date, a reason—
To my right, a woman lowers her head to meet it;
smiles for her phone as she snaps a pic, then shrugs:
her white fist jutting a bald thumbs-up.
F20: Male, 29 Years Old
F20: MALE, 29 YEARS OLD
Only we, the mandible and maxilla, are left:
windup jaws dismantled for the joke. Stained
with tobacco and calculus, we’re the fragile rest
of him that feels most human. Our size suggests his brain
was malformed, body stunted: we were his best
defense, gnashing at the hands that cuffed him,
tearing through cloth ties or plastic, leather, skin—
Fact is, you want him armed, each tooth polished
as a bullet, the hope we clamped ourselves tight
to strangers’ fingers, refusing to be diminished.
That, despised, a figure of indifference,
he still had means to defend himself, some right
to wound that defined his humanness: a violence
he never lost, no matter what else he’d missed.
Portrait of D19: Male, 41 Years Old
PORTRAIT OF D19: MALE, 41 YEARS OLD
This skull recalls for me The Dying Gaul,
that statue’s cast I found secreted
in a museum stairwell, dust-veil caul
darkening the groin’s slivered wound-lips.
A child, I traced that snail shape curled in its nest
of hair, wondering why a man would go to war
naked, and how his sweat-slicked flesh
might feel, slipping against another soldier’s.
Easy to taste. Easy to tear. I stroked the deepest
breast folds, skin crust chipped at one thigh,
exposing a grubby notch of porcelain:
timeworn flaw for which he’d been consigned
to the shadows. The same material weakness to stone
and skin which makes me now remember him.
Portrait of D17: Female, 37 Years Old
PORTRAIT OF D17: FEMALE, 37 YEARS OLD
In Phnom Penh’s museum, the skulls are stacked
in aquarium tanks: grim toys for hooks to ply
free from the rubble. Here, each one gets a tag,
a mount, a photograph to suggest a life,
perhaps a name, might be envisioned. Yet I’m