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Back Her White Lie
Chapters (72)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Chapter One
  4. Chapter Two
  5. Chapter Three
  6. Chapter Four
  7. Chapter Five
  8. Chapter Six
  9. Chapter Seven
  10. Chapter Eight
  11. Chapter Nine
  12. Chapter Ten
  13. Chapter Eleven
  14. Chapter Twelve
  15. Chapter Thirteen
  16. Chapter Fourteen
  17. Chapter Fifteen
  18. Chapter Sixteen
  19. Chapter Seventeen
  20. Chapter Eighteen
  21. Chapter Nineteen
  22. Chapter Twenty
  23. Chapter Twenty-One
  24. Chapter Twenty-Two
  25. Chapter Twenty-Three
  26. Chapter Twenty-Four
  27. Chapter Twenty-Five
  28. Chapter Twenty-Six
  29. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  30. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  31. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  32. Chapter Thirty
  33. Chapter Thirty-One
  34. Chapter Thirty-Two
  35. Chapter Thirty-Three
  36. Chapter Thirty-Four
  37. Chapter Thirty-Five
  38. Chapter Thirty-Six
  39. Chapter Thirty-Seven
  40. Chapter Thirty-Eight
  41. Chapter Thirty-Nine
  42. Chapter Forty
  43. Chapter Forty-One
  44. Chapter Forty-Two
  45. Chapter Forty-Three
  46. Chapter Forty-Four
  47. Chapter Forty-Five
  48. Chapter Forty-Six
  49. Chapter Forty-Seven
  50. Chapter Forty-Eight
  51. Chapter Forty-Nine
  52. Chapter Fifty
  53. Chapter Fifty-One
  54. Chapter Fifty-Two
  55. Chapter Fifty-Three
  56. Chapter Fifty-Four
  57. Chapter Fifty-Five
  58. Chapter Fifty-Six
  59. Chapter Fifty-Seven
  60. Chapter Fifty-Eight
  61. Chapter Fifty-Nine
  62. Chapter Sixty
  63. Chapter Sixty-One
  64. Chapter Sixty-Two
  65. Chapter Sixty-Three
  66. Chapter Sixty-Four
  67. Chapter Sixty-Five
  68. Chapter Sixty-Six
  69. Chapter Sixty-Seven
  70. A letter from Jackie
  71. About the Author
  72. Also by Jackie Walsh

‘Look,’ she says, holding it close to her chest, grinning from ear to ear.

‘Congratulations,’ I say, wishing she’d go away and leave me alone. I’m so confused. I need time to think.

The detectives finally left after telling me they’d be back in touch soon. Detective Lee said I was to go nowhere and was only short of laughing when she looked around the room, highlighting where I was, as if to say I shouldn’t find that request too hard to keep. I didn’t care. I had too much to worry about for her bitchiness to be a problem.

I still can’t get my head around what she said. Is she lying? Is she even allowed to lie? Was I supposed to jump up and contradict her, tell her what was really in the text and reveal that Avril Ryan was in touch with me? If that was her plan, it failed.

I kept my mouth shut. The only thing I uttered to her after that was to tell her that if she planned to keep harassing me while I was at such a delicate crossroads in my life, I would be getting a solicitor. I didn’t like her response, which was to recommend I did so. Now I have to make a phone call to my father and tell him what’s going on. Ask him to get me a solicitor. If this doesn’t kill him off, I don’t know what will.

Aoife has skipped out of the room, leaving me alone. Thankfully, I have a session with Fionn first thing in the morning. He’ll tell me what to do. What to do about Tara. Should I call and tell her what happened with the detectives? She did say to contact her if they were back on to me but it’s just a few days to the wedding. I don’t want to ruin that too.

I’m looking at the ceiling, doubting everything in my head. What if I did have something to do with Avril Ryan’s death and I blanked it out? That can happen with alcoholics. They have special erasers inside their head to help them rub out parts of their past that are too difficult to live with. Is that what happened to me?

No, it isn’t. I know exactly what happened back then. It was the most painful time of my life and instead of erasing it like I should have, I relived it every day, allowing it to destroy me… and now I find out it wasn’t the truth.