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Chapters (69)
  1. Copyright Notice
  2. THE MILLENNIUM
  3. DON
  4. HANNAH
  5. KAREN
  6. DON’S MOTHER
  7. PETER
  8. THE MOTHER
  9. DR. BROWN
  10. HANNAH’S FATHER
  11. SERGEJ
  12. MOTHER
  13. THE RUSSIAN
  14. THOME
  15. THE RED DEER
  16. THOME’S FATHER
  17. WALTER
  18. KAREN’S BIG BROTHER
  19. PATUK
  20. OLD WOMAN
  21. POLICEWOMAN
  22. BEFORE THE INTERMISSION
  23. INTERMISSION
  24. HUMANITY
  25. SIR ERNEST (EARL)
  26. COMMUNICATIONS CONSULTANT
  27. PROGRAMMER
  28. MA WEI
  29. CARL
  30. THE FRIENDS (BEN, KEMAL, PAVEL, MAGGY, RACHEL)
  31. BODYCAM MAN
  32. MAGGY
  33. MR. M.
  34. ROGER
  35. THE AVERAGE ENGLISHMAN
  36. THE LAB DIRECTOR
  37. HONEST MAN
  38. JOB NOMADS
  39. COURIER
  40. BOXER
  41. ATTACKERS
  42. THE EIGHT-YEAR-OLD PROSTITUTE
  43. KEVIN
  44. SWEATING MAN
  45. BERTA AND HENRY’S
  46. RACHEL
  47. YOUNG MEN
  48. ARTHUR
  49. STUDENT
  50. ROB
  51. A WOMAN
  52. PHILOSOPHER
  53. THE MATTRESS SELLER
  54. ABDULLAH B.
  55. THE PRO-LIFERS
  56. PROFESSOR DR. KUHN
  57. JON
  58. PROFESSOR
  59. MIDDLE-AGED TEACHER
  60. WOMAN WITH THE THINNING HAIR
  61. BANKER
  62. THE CHILD
  63. THE NEW PRIME MINISTER
  64. MADAME CECILIE
  65. THE JOURNALIST
  66. THE WORLD
  67. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  68. ABOUT THE AUTHOR
  69. Newsletter Sign-up

Which is why he follows her as soon as she leaves home. Why he hooked up with the group called the Others, who hunt doctors who perform abortions, which is to say commit murders. Or women who want abortions. Who are then—how shall we put it—pressured by the group. Their addresses are posted on a website. Easy.

And now he tosses away the ashtray and runs into the night. Perhaps he can still beat up a homeless person so as to explain the blood on his collar.

It smells of food

When

KAREN

Enters the factory. It’s after midnight, and the others are lying on their mattresses, tomato sauce smeared on their faces. Leftover noodles still in the kitchen. “Dr. Brown died with an erection,” she says. “From or with?” asks Don. “Eat something first,” says Peter. The children who are no longer children—what do you call people who are still growing, for fuck’s sake?—sit at the kitchen table with Karen and watch Karen shovel herself full of lukewarm noodles. She’s not hungry, but sitting here, with the others, like a real family, is a ritual they’ve established, sitting together and talking, as if they could be each other’s family. They sit at the table, because grown-ups always sit at a table and make serious faces. They make serious faces and discuss adult things. The price of water has risen in the city again. It’s shut off every day for a few hours. People no longer bathe, barely shower, and there’s powder to fight the odor created by an unwashed body. Showering. What a thing. The children sometimes wash themselves in the little stream outside, sometimes in the kitchen sink. Often, though, not at all.

Despite its loft-style loftiness, the factory hall still looks like something. That animals live in. The mattresses on the floor, the laundry they wash in a trough in the kitchen hangs from lines all over the place, pizza boxes in the corner. Cardboard on the windows so as not to reveal at night to any potentially passing drones that it’s occupied.

The children leave the kitchen in its state, a state that looks as though a set designer had set up a bombed-out kiddie kitchen, and they lie on their mattresses to enjoy the best moment of the day. When the lights are out and the TV is on, all of them doing something by their nightstand lamps, reading or thinking or just not sleeping. I don’t want to go to sleep yet. The moment when it’s like being in a cave, when we all breathe as one, should never end. The moment before they’re all alone as the heroes of their nightmares, before you wake up in the morning in a light that illuminates the aimlessness and loneliness of the group too brightly. And

DON