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Chapters (69)
  1. Copyright Notice
  2. THE MILLENNIUM
  3. DON
  4. HANNAH
  5. KAREN
  6. DON’S MOTHER
  7. PETER
  8. THE MOTHER
  9. DR. BROWN
  10. HANNAH’S FATHER
  11. SERGEJ
  12. MOTHER
  13. THE RUSSIAN
  14. THOME
  15. THE RED DEER
  16. THOME’S FATHER
  17. WALTER
  18. KAREN’S BIG BROTHER
  19. PATUK
  20. OLD WOMAN
  21. POLICEWOMAN
  22. BEFORE THE INTERMISSION
  23. INTERMISSION
  24. HUMANITY
  25. SIR ERNEST (EARL)
  26. COMMUNICATIONS CONSULTANT
  27. PROGRAMMER
  28. MA WEI
  29. CARL
  30. THE FRIENDS (BEN, KEMAL, PAVEL, MAGGY, RACHEL)
  31. BODYCAM MAN
  32. MAGGY
  33. MR. M.
  34. ROGER
  35. THE AVERAGE ENGLISHMAN
  36. THE LAB DIRECTOR
  37. HONEST MAN
  38. JOB NOMADS
  39. COURIER
  40. BOXER
  41. ATTACKERS
  42. THE EIGHT-YEAR-OLD PROSTITUTE
  43. KEVIN
  44. SWEATING MAN
  45. BERTA AND HENRY’S
  46. RACHEL
  47. YOUNG MEN
  48. ARTHUR
  49. STUDENT
  50. ROB
  51. A WOMAN
  52. PHILOSOPHER
  53. THE MATTRESS SELLER
  54. ABDULLAH B.
  55. THE PRO-LIFERS
  56. PROFESSOR DR. KUHN
  57. JON
  58. PROFESSOR
  59. MIDDLE-AGED TEACHER
  60. WOMAN WITH THE THINNING HAIR
  61. BANKER
  62. THE CHILD
  63. THE NEW PRIME MINISTER
  64. MADAME CECILIE
  65. THE JOURNALIST
  66. THE WORLD
  67. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  68. ABOUT THE AUTHOR
  69. Newsletter Sign-up

Who is sitting by the river. It’s dangerous by the river, but at least this way he can keep an eye on it. Under control. He can react. That way the fear is bearable. The fear he’s had since the flood. Although—fear doesn’t adequately describe his fundamental feeling of discomfort. Roger has lost his inherent human confidence. The self-conception of existence that protects one in daily life. Roger reckons with the very worst at every moment. Since that night, when he still had a little house on the sea, up north. The night when he was watching television and suddenly had wet feet, the night when the water slowly rose and all the neighbors stood on the street until their ankles, knees, thighs were submerged, it’ll recede. It didn’t. Then came the helicopters. Since then he starts to scream whenever he hears the whoosh of rotors, since then he can’t get the vision out of his head of the life that sank in the flood. For years the residents of his cute little town on the sea had resisted. Had trekked to London with cardboard signs, protested against carbon emission trading, warned of global warming; they had no idea what exactly it all meant, or whether it really was the cause of the changes in their world, but somebody had to bear the blame. All these boring, abstract things that mostly sex-starved old ladies demonstrated about, things that gave them a purpose in life before they were composted, all of it had burrowed into Roger’s cells. That and the knowledge that people had destroyed him and his home, his life, just because they could, was comparable to what people experience during a war. The loss of faith in oneself. And the world. So Roger sat by the river. He knows that he is nothing. Insignificant. With no rights. With no purpose. From afar, noises—

HANNAH

Puts on music.