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Chapters (69)
  1. Copyright Notice
  2. THE MILLENNIUM
  3. DON
  4. HANNAH
  5. KAREN
  6. DON’S MOTHER
  7. PETER
  8. THE MOTHER
  9. DR. BROWN
  10. HANNAH’S FATHER
  11. SERGEJ
  12. MOTHER
  13. THE RUSSIAN
  14. THOME
  15. THE RED DEER
  16. THOME’S FATHER
  17. WALTER
  18. KAREN’S BIG BROTHER
  19. PATUK
  20. OLD WOMAN
  21. POLICEWOMAN
  22. BEFORE THE INTERMISSION
  23. INTERMISSION
  24. HUMANITY
  25. SIR ERNEST (EARL)
  26. COMMUNICATIONS CONSULTANT
  27. PROGRAMMER
  28. MA WEI
  29. CARL
  30. THE FRIENDS (BEN, KEMAL, PAVEL, MAGGY, RACHEL)
  31. BODYCAM MAN
  32. MAGGY
  33. MR. M.
  34. ROGER
  35. THE AVERAGE ENGLISHMAN
  36. THE LAB DIRECTOR
  37. HONEST MAN
  38. JOB NOMADS
  39. COURIER
  40. BOXER
  41. ATTACKERS
  42. THE EIGHT-YEAR-OLD PROSTITUTE
  43. KEVIN
  44. SWEATING MAN
  45. BERTA AND HENRY’S
  46. RACHEL
  47. YOUNG MEN
  48. ARTHUR
  49. STUDENT
  50. ROB
  51. A WOMAN
  52. PHILOSOPHER
  53. THE MATTRESS SELLER
  54. ABDULLAH B.
  55. THE PRO-LIFERS
  56. PROFESSOR DR. KUHN
  57. JON
  58. PROFESSOR
  59. MIDDLE-AGED TEACHER
  60. WOMAN WITH THE THINNING HAIR
  61. BANKER
  62. THE CHILD
  63. THE NEW PRIME MINISTER
  64. MADAME CECILIE
  65. THE JOURNALIST
  66. THE WORLD
  67. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  68. ABOUT THE AUTHOR
  69. Newsletter Sign-up

To herself. At night, when she’s on watch, she likes to talk to herself. At night, when she stands guard over an imaginary fire. If a social worker were to show up, one of those single women about forty years old, with good intentions and bad hair, she would say: “It’s delightful here.” Like at a children’s overnight camp. “You know, I used to be in one, too. Oh, good old Bath—how I loved it there.” And then she’d look at Don as if she, a member of the white former middle class, and Don, a descendant of the various waves of guest workers, were somehow comrades because of her memories of youth, which were guaranteed to be about bad sex. As if she knew what was going on here. As if she’d suddenly developed pigmentation that would release her from her pink existence and bestow upon her an agreeable physique. “I have lots of friends who are foreigners,” she’d say, because she wouldn’t be sure which shade of nonwhite to classify Don as. And the social worker would hang about, as if she were expecting an award for it, as if she wanted to show that in a pinch she, too, would eat vomit. Then she’d enter the factory building expectantly. Images in her head. If you said to someone, “Listen, we live in a commune of neglected children in an old factory building,” it conjures up images from American movies. Large windows, plank floors, wood stove, cashmere blankets, and dogs. Not something that looks like an art installation put up as a critique by some student from St. Andrews looking to grapple with social ills. Aha, the social worker would mumble helplessly while using all her might to conceal her disgust. Despite the efforts of the children to make the place into a home, to adult outsiders it still seemed a bit. Jarring. It was damp and smelled of unwashed children, there were things lying and hanging all over the place, old clothes, jam jars, pots stuck with spaghetti, broken windows, drugs. Okay, not drugs. Next, in the dusky light, the social worker would take the mattresses on the floor for beds and the candles for a romantic quirk rather than the result of the fact that the children could steal electricity only sparingly. And the solar panels—yeah, well. It rained a lot. And it was hot. And very cold. And these extremes alternated maddeningly. Strange weather, thanks to the failing gulf stream. But—

“Don’t the kiddies look cute? The way they cling to their pillows,” she’d say while patting one of the children, who would then bite her hand. “Oops,” she would say. Looking at the bones laid bare in her hand. “Like a sailboat, don’t you think, the bones,” Don would say, smiling at the bones.