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Chapters (65)
  1. Cover
  2. Prologue
  3. Chapter One
  4. Chapter Two
  5. Chapter Three
  6. Chapter Four
  7. Chapter Five
  8. Chapter Six
  9. Chapter Seven
  10. Chapter Eight
  11. Chapter Nine
  12. Chapter Ten
  13. Chapter Eleven
  14. Chapter Twelve
  15. Chapter Thirteen
  16. Chapter Fourteen
  17. Chapter Fifteen
  18. Chapter Sixteen
  19. Chapter Seventeen
  20. Chapter Eighteen
  21. Chapter Nineteen
  22. Chapter Twenty
  23. Chapter Twenty-One
  24. Chapter Twenty-Two
  25. Chapter Twenty-Three
  26. Chapter Twenty-Four
  27. Chapter Twenty-Five
  28. Chapter Twenty-Six
  29. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  30. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  31. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  32. Chapter Thirty
  33. Chapter Thirty-One
  34. Chapter Thirty-Two
  35. Chapter Thirty-Three
  36. Chapter Thirty-Four
  37. Chapter Thirty-Five
  38. Chapter Thirty-Six
  39. Chapter Thirty-Seven
  40. Chapter Thirty-Eight
  41. Chapter Thirty-Nine
  42. Chapter Forty
  43. Chapter Forty-One
  44. Chapter Forty-Two
  45. Chapter Forty-Three
  46. Chapter Forty-Four
  47. Chapter Forty-Five
  48. Chapter Forty-Six
  49. Chapter Forty-Seven
  50. Chapter Forty-Eight
  51. Chapter Forty-Nine
  52. Chapter Fifty
  53. Chapter Fifty-One
  54. Chapter Fifty-Two
  55. Chapter Fifty-Three
  56. Chapter Fifty-Four
  57. Chapter Fifty-Five
  58. Acknowledgments
  59. P.S. Insights, Interviews & More . . .*
  60. About the Author
  61. About the Book
  62. Read On
  63. Praise for Susan Lewis and Her Books
  64. Also by Susan Lewis
  65. About the Publisher

“Exactly. Now, let me introduce you to everyone else.”

The next hour passed swiftly and easily enough for Claudia finally to find herself starting to relax. The voices in her head and cruel memories had stopped, there were only these friendly people from all sorts of professions, trades, and callings and most of them around her age. In fact, probably thanks to the champagne, she was enjoying talking to Dan Collier again. She was no longer as unnerved by the way his eyes held hers as she spoke, never searching the room for someone more interesting to talk to. However, she knew he’d soon start asking about her past, so to prevent it she clumsily steered the conversation to the restorative justice program Andee had told her about.

“Ah, no, you’re just being polite,” he protested. “Unless Andee’s been on your case about becoming a practitioner? Has she?”

“No, she hasn’t, and I’m not sure I’d be right for it. I mean, the idea of it seems a good one, and if it works . . . Does it work?”

“In a lot of cases, yes.”

“But not in all?”

“I guess it depends on what you term to be a success. If it helps a victim to overcome the trauma of what’s happened to them, you’d have to agree that’s a good thing. Does it erase what happened? No. So really it’s about finding a way to unlock someone from a place of fear, or anger, injustice, revenge, so they can move on.”

Absorbing that, she said, “But it’s also about the person who committed the crime?”

“Absolutely. Understanding the impact of your actions, regretting them, and wanting to show remorse can put a perpetrator in a whole different place in his or her own mind, as well as in the mind of the person they’ve harmed.”

Unable to imagine herself ever wanting to come face-to-face with Marcus again, much less wanting to hear the excuses for his cruelty, she asked, “How did you get into it?”

His eyes flickered away for a moment as he said, “My wife was a practitioner and she persuaded me to become one too.” With a grim sort of smile he added, “That was back in a previous life, before I moved here.”

Wondering where his wife was now, Claudia started to speak, but as though reading her mind he said, “She died, three years ago.”

Sensing the devastation behind his words, Claudia’s heart melted as she thought of Joel. “I’m so sorry. I really am. Was it unexpected?” she asked gently.

“A car accident. Ice on the road, an oncoming lorry . . . It wasn’t anyone’s fault . . .”

Realizing he was still grieving, she said, “So you moved here. To try and start again?”