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Chapters (65)
  1. Cover
  2. Prologue
  3. Chapter One
  4. Chapter Two
  5. Chapter Three
  6. Chapter Four
  7. Chapter Five
  8. Chapter Six
  9. Chapter Seven
  10. Chapter Eight
  11. Chapter Nine
  12. Chapter Ten
  13. Chapter Eleven
  14. Chapter Twelve
  15. Chapter Thirteen
  16. Chapter Fourteen
  17. Chapter Fifteen
  18. Chapter Sixteen
  19. Chapter Seventeen
  20. Chapter Eighteen
  21. Chapter Nineteen
  22. Chapter Twenty
  23. Chapter Twenty-One
  24. Chapter Twenty-Two
  25. Chapter Twenty-Three
  26. Chapter Twenty-Four
  27. Chapter Twenty-Five
  28. Chapter Twenty-Six
  29. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  30. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  31. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  32. Chapter Thirty
  33. Chapter Thirty-One
  34. Chapter Thirty-Two
  35. Chapter Thirty-Three
  36. Chapter Thirty-Four
  37. Chapter Thirty-Five
  38. Chapter Thirty-Six
  39. Chapter Thirty-Seven
  40. Chapter Thirty-Eight
  41. Chapter Thirty-Nine
  42. Chapter Forty
  43. Chapter Forty-One
  44. Chapter Forty-Two
  45. Chapter Forty-Three
  46. Chapter Forty-Four
  47. Chapter Forty-Five
  48. Chapter Forty-Six
  49. Chapter Forty-Seven
  50. Chapter Forty-Eight
  51. Chapter Forty-Nine
  52. Chapter Fifty
  53. Chapter Fifty-One
  54. Chapter Fifty-Two
  55. Chapter Fifty-Three
  56. Chapter Fifty-Four
  57. Chapter Fifty-Five
  58. Acknowledgments
  59. P.S. Insights, Interviews & More . . .*
  60. About the Author
  61. About the Book
  62. Read On
  63. Praise for Susan Lewis and Her Books
  64. Also by Susan Lewis
  65. About the Publisher

Archie’s head was still down, the muscles in his arms tightening as he pressed his hands together. “They were to torch the place,” he said. “I knew there might be something inside that needed to be got rid of, and because I hadn’t been able to find it when I broke in . . . I . . . I was told to make the place go up in smoke as a kind of insurance.”

“And how did you feel when you were smashing the windows and pouring petrol through them?” Dan asked, matter-of-factly enough to make Marcy flinch.

Archie’s eyes were still on his hands as he said, “I felt scared of being caught, and of setting fire to myself. I’d been warned about how that might happen. I was also scared of screwing up because of what might happen to me and my ma if I did.”

Dan said, “Had anyone actually told you what that would be?”

Archie shook his head. “Those things don’t get put into words, you just know they’re bad.”

Accepting that, Dan prompted him to continue with how he’d felt while committing the crime.

“I suppose,” Archie said, “apart from scared and everything, I felt kind of weird about it all, because it wasn’t something I wanted to do. I just thought I had to . . .” He took a breath and wiped a shaky hand over his mouth. “Looking back, I reckon I wasn’t allowing myself to think much at all. I just went through the motions . . . Obviously I wish now that I’d had the courage to tell them what to do with their money and their orders and their threats. I wish they didn’t always target my ma the way they do. I used to try to make out she don’t mean anything to me so they’d leave her alone, stop using her to force me into stuff, but they did it anyway.” He took a moment, making his knuckles turn white as he bunched his hands together on the table, a kind of power-up, Marcy thought, to make himself continue.