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Chapters (65)
  1. Cover
  2. Prologue
  3. Chapter One
  4. Chapter Two
  5. Chapter Three
  6. Chapter Four
  7. Chapter Five
  8. Chapter Six
  9. Chapter Seven
  10. Chapter Eight
  11. Chapter Nine
  12. Chapter Ten
  13. Chapter Eleven
  14. Chapter Twelve
  15. Chapter Thirteen
  16. Chapter Fourteen
  17. Chapter Fifteen
  18. Chapter Sixteen
  19. Chapter Seventeen
  20. Chapter Eighteen
  21. Chapter Nineteen
  22. Chapter Twenty
  23. Chapter Twenty-One
  24. Chapter Twenty-Two
  25. Chapter Twenty-Three
  26. Chapter Twenty-Four
  27. Chapter Twenty-Five
  28. Chapter Twenty-Six
  29. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  30. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  31. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  32. Chapter Thirty
  33. Chapter Thirty-One
  34. Chapter Thirty-Two
  35. Chapter Thirty-Three
  36. Chapter Thirty-Four
  37. Chapter Thirty-Five
  38. Chapter Thirty-Six
  39. Chapter Thirty-Seven
  40. Chapter Thirty-Eight
  41. Chapter Thirty-Nine
  42. Chapter Forty
  43. Chapter Forty-One
  44. Chapter Forty-Two
  45. Chapter Forty-Three
  46. Chapter Forty-Four
  47. Chapter Forty-Five
  48. Chapter Forty-Six
  49. Chapter Forty-Seven
  50. Chapter Forty-Eight
  51. Chapter Forty-Nine
  52. Chapter Fifty
  53. Chapter Fifty-One
  54. Chapter Fifty-Two
  55. Chapter Fifty-Three
  56. Chapter Fifty-Four
  57. Chapter Fifty-Five
  58. Acknowledgments
  59. P.S. Insights, Interviews & More . . .*
  60. About the Author
  61. About the Book
  62. Read On
  63. Praise for Susan Lewis and Her Books
  64. Also by Susan Lewis
  65. About the Publisher

The surgery had gone as well as hoped, she was told as Marcy was settled on the ventilator while drugs to maintain her blood pressure were tapered down. Again, her entire head was swathed in dressings, apart from her eyes and mouth forming three shadowy gashes in the ghoulish white of the helmet. It was stifling in the cubicle, the way it had to be for burns patients, but Claudia hardly noticed the heat. She was transfixed by the discoloration around her mother’s left eye where fluorescein dye, the nurse explained, had been used to check the depth of the burns. There was no sign of infection, she was assured, although it remained a concern, so drops would be regularly applied to reduce the risk. A further surgery was scheduled for tomorrow to take skin from her underarm in order to remake the left eyelid.

Claudia had never heard of such astonishing procedures before, and would have been happy to remain unenlightened.

“We’ll be keeping her sedated for at least the next few days,” the senior nurse informed her. “This will stop her fighting the ventilator, although the aim is to get her off of that as quickly as we can to avoid a chest infection.”

Claudia didn’t ask how much pain there was going to be once her mother was conscious; it was something that would have to be dealt with when it happened. For now, it was important simply to take one step at a time, and the fact that the second surgery hadn’t uncovered anything worse than was already known—as if that wasn’t terrible enough—must count as a blessing.

As the nurses worked quietly around the bed, Claudia sat down and took her mother’s right hand between both of hers. The skin was as soft and unblemished by fire as her own, while the other hand was in a boxing-glove-size dressing that continued up to her shoulder. All blisters had been removed during surgery and the small amount of exposed skin on her neck glistened red and raw each time a soothing coat of paraffin was applied. Through the small frame of bandages around the mouth it was possible to see that her lips were swollen and taut and silvery, and each time a nurse gently moved her head Claudia was reminded that beneath the dressings her mother’s burnt scalp was now entirely bald. What had been left of her hair on admission had been shaved off to avoid infection.

Time hissed and bleeped quietly by as Claudia tried to connect with her mother by telepathy, to assure her that she would get through this. You mustn’t worry about the house, she told her silently, or about anything else. You’re all that matters.