Back Chasing Shadows
Chapters (74)
  1. Cover
  2. Praise for Lynn Austin
  3. Also by Lynn Austin
  4. Epigraph
  5. PROLOGUE
  6. CHAPTER 1
  7. CHAPTER 2
  8. CHAPTER 3
  9. CHAPTER 4
  10. CHAPTER 5
  11. CHAPTER 6
  12. CHAPTER 7
  13. CHAPTER 8
  14. CHAPTER 9
  15. CHAPTER 10
  16. CHAPTER 11
  17. CHAPTER 12
  18. CHAPTER 13
  19. CHAPTER 14
  20. CHAPTER 15
  21. CHAPTER 16
  22. CHAPTER 17
  23. CHAPTER 18
  24. CHAPTER 19
  25. CHAPTER 20
  26. CHAPTER 21
  27. CHAPTER 22
  28. CHAPTER 23
  29. CHAPTER 24
  30. CHAPTER 25
  31. CHAPTER 26
  32. CHAPTER 27
  33. CHAPTER 28
  34. CHAPTER 29
  35. CHAPTER 30
  36. CHAPTER 31
  37. CHAPTER 32
  38. CHAPTER 33
  39. CHAPTER 34
  40. CHAPTER 35
  41. CHAPTER 36
  42. CHAPTER 37
  43. CHAPTER 38
  44. CHAPTER 39
  45. CHAPTER 40
  46. CHAPTER 41
  47. CHAPTER 42
  48. CHAPTER 43
  49. CHAPTER 44
  50. CHAPTER 45
  51. CHAPTER 46
  52. CHAPTER 47
  53. CHAPTER 48
  54. CHAPTER 49
  55. CHAPTER 50
  56. CHAPTER 51
  57. CHAPTER 52
  58. CHAPTER 53
  59. CHAPTER 54
  60. CHAPTER 55
  61. CHAPTER 56
  62. CHAPTER 57
  63. CHAPTER 58
  64. CHAPTER 59
  65. CHAPTER 60
  66. CHAPTER 61
  67. CHAPTER 62
  68. CHAPTER 63
  69. EPILOGUE
  70. CHAPTER 1
  71. A Note from the Author
  72. Acknowledgments
  73. Discussion Questions
  74. About the Author

“Norway and Denmark were neutral,” Eloise said. “Neutral! Just like Belgium was in the Great War. Just like we are here in the Netherlands. See, Ans? Neutrality means nothing to those people. Nothing!” Her voice sounded shaky at first but seemed to grow stronger along with her anger.

“Eloise, please,” Ans said, handing her a towel. “We need to turn off the radio until your husband comes home. It’s only going to stir up memories that you need to forget.”

“Forget! I won’t ever forget! You weren’t even born when the Kaiser decided to use neutral Belgium as a shortcut to Paris. They killed my parents and took over our house in Antwerp.”

Ans had never seen Eloise this upset. Should she telephone the professor? She had a number where he could be reached at the university in an emergency.

“My older brother escaped to France and fought with the Allies,” Eloise continued. “He was gassed in the war. I saw him one last time, and he begged me to kill him and end his suffering.” Eloise turned to Miriam, commanding her attention as if both of their lives were now at risk. “We nearly starved to death, Miriam!”

Miriam seemed to have trouble breathing whenever she became upset, and she was clearly in distress now.

“Eloise, stop. You’re upsetting yourself and Miriam, too. Please —”

“You both need to know that wars always bring famine and disease and starvation. Thousands of innocent people died of hunger in Belgium before the world stepped in to help us.”

“But you survived and you moved here —”

“There were too many horrible memories for me in Belgium.”

“And you married the professor,” Ans said, desperate to steer her memories in a different direction. “He loves you very much, I can tell. You have a beautiful life together. I hope I find a husband someday who loves me half as much as he loves you.” Eloise managed a smile. “When your thoughts go to the past, why not think of the present, instead? And the future?”

Eloise’s eyes filled with tears. “There won’t be a future —that’s what I’m trying to tell you, Ans. It’s going to happen all over again. Enemy occupation. Starvation and death —”

“Stop!” Ans grabbed Eloise’s flailing hands, squeezing them tightly. “You don’t know that, Eloise. Our country has already mobilized hundreds of thousands of troops who are positioned to defend us if —”

“We Belgians did the same thing.” She shook her hands free. “The troops won’t do any good. Ask the Danes and the Norwegians.”

“Our country was spared in the last war —”

“It won’t be spared this time.” Eloise stared into space as tears washed down her cheeks. Ans wondered if she dared to leave her side long enough to call Professor Huizenga.