Back Chasing Shadows
Chapters (74)
  1. Cover
  2. Praise for Lynn Austin
  3. Also by Lynn Austin
  4. Epigraph
  5. PROLOGUE
  6. CHAPTER 1
  7. CHAPTER 2
  8. CHAPTER 3
  9. CHAPTER 4
  10. CHAPTER 5
  11. CHAPTER 6
  12. CHAPTER 7
  13. CHAPTER 8
  14. CHAPTER 9
  15. CHAPTER 10
  16. CHAPTER 11
  17. CHAPTER 12
  18. CHAPTER 13
  19. CHAPTER 14
  20. CHAPTER 15
  21. CHAPTER 16
  22. CHAPTER 17
  23. CHAPTER 18
  24. CHAPTER 19
  25. CHAPTER 20
  26. CHAPTER 21
  27. CHAPTER 22
  28. CHAPTER 23
  29. CHAPTER 24
  30. CHAPTER 25
  31. CHAPTER 26
  32. CHAPTER 27
  33. CHAPTER 28
  34. CHAPTER 29
  35. CHAPTER 30
  36. CHAPTER 31
  37. CHAPTER 32
  38. CHAPTER 33
  39. CHAPTER 34
  40. CHAPTER 35
  41. CHAPTER 36
  42. CHAPTER 37
  43. CHAPTER 38
  44. CHAPTER 39
  45. CHAPTER 40
  46. CHAPTER 41
  47. CHAPTER 42
  48. CHAPTER 43
  49. CHAPTER 44
  50. CHAPTER 45
  51. CHAPTER 46
  52. CHAPTER 47
  53. CHAPTER 48
  54. CHAPTER 49
  55. CHAPTER 50
  56. CHAPTER 51
  57. CHAPTER 52
  58. CHAPTER 53
  59. CHAPTER 54
  60. CHAPTER 55
  61. CHAPTER 56
  62. CHAPTER 57
  63. CHAPTER 58
  64. CHAPTER 59
  65. CHAPTER 60
  66. CHAPTER 61
  67. CHAPTER 62
  68. CHAPTER 63
  69. EPILOGUE
  70. CHAPTER 1
  71. A Note from the Author
  72. Acknowledgments
  73. Discussion Questions
  74. About the Author

She was the same Eloise that Ans knew and loved, talking rapidly and without pause, gesturing with her fluttery hands. There were more strangers in the parlor too, including a young woman holding a baby, both heavily bundled against the chill. “Everyone . . . this is Ans,” Eloise announced. “She’s . . . well, she’s like a daughter to me, and she’s home!”

There were dozens of questions Ans wanted to ask as everyone chimed in to welcome her, but she knew Eloise would answer them in time. At last, she and Eloise were able to sit down at the little table where they’d had tea on Ans’s first day. It seemed like a hundred years ago. “How are you, Eloise? And —” she leaned closer to whisper —“who are all these people?”

“I’m as good as can be expected, with good days and bad days. Today is a wonderful day now that you’re home.”

“And the people . . . ?”

“They’re the families of Herman and Aalt’s bank employees. When the Nazis arrested them, they also arrested the men who worked with them. Many of their wives and children had no way to support themselves and no place to go, so I invited them to live here. We’ve become our own little family. So you see, Ans? I’m still fighting back.”

“Yes, I do see.”

“I took them in because they’re important to Herman and his brother, so they’ve become important to me. And after that, I couldn’t break down or withdraw from the world, no matter how hard it was, at times, not to give up. To abandon them would be selfish of me.” Ans wanted to ask how Eloise could afford to support them all, but as she gazed around, she noticed how ravaged the once-lovely town house looked and how many of Eloise’s treasures were missing —the Meissen china, the sterling silver, valuable paintings. She remembered Eloise’s words on the day they’d traveled to Amsterdam and saw the Nazis rounding up Jews: “What good is a chest filled with gold that never gets spent? And what good is my life if I selfishly keep it to myself and don’t spend it for others?”

“Now that you’re back, you can help us search for food every day. It’s becoming quite a challenge, believe me, and the others are getting discouraged, but I know you, Ans. You don’t let anything discourage you. We’ve learned to make do without fuel and electricity, but it’s impossible to get by without food.”

“How many people live here?”

“I don’t know. Besides the bank families? I’ve lost count because it varies. I can’t ignore people who are freezing and starving and begging in the street, can I?”