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Chapters (74)
  1. Cover
  2. Praise for Lynn Austin
  3. Also by Lynn Austin
  4. Epigraph
  5. PROLOGUE
  6. CHAPTER 1
  7. CHAPTER 2
  8. CHAPTER 3
  9. CHAPTER 4
  10. CHAPTER 5
  11. CHAPTER 6
  12. CHAPTER 7
  13. CHAPTER 8
  14. CHAPTER 9
  15. CHAPTER 10
  16. CHAPTER 11
  17. CHAPTER 12
  18. CHAPTER 13
  19. CHAPTER 14
  20. CHAPTER 15
  21. CHAPTER 16
  22. CHAPTER 17
  23. CHAPTER 18
  24. CHAPTER 19
  25. CHAPTER 20
  26. CHAPTER 21
  27. CHAPTER 22
  28. CHAPTER 23
  29. CHAPTER 24
  30. CHAPTER 25
  31. CHAPTER 26
  32. CHAPTER 27
  33. CHAPTER 28
  34. CHAPTER 29
  35. CHAPTER 30
  36. CHAPTER 31
  37. CHAPTER 32
  38. CHAPTER 33
  39. CHAPTER 34
  40. CHAPTER 35
  41. CHAPTER 36
  42. CHAPTER 37
  43. CHAPTER 38
  44. CHAPTER 39
  45. CHAPTER 40
  46. CHAPTER 41
  47. CHAPTER 42
  48. CHAPTER 43
  49. CHAPTER 44
  50. CHAPTER 45
  51. CHAPTER 46
  52. CHAPTER 47
  53. CHAPTER 48
  54. CHAPTER 49
  55. CHAPTER 50
  56. CHAPTER 51
  57. CHAPTER 52
  58. CHAPTER 53
  59. CHAPTER 54
  60. CHAPTER 55
  61. CHAPTER 56
  62. CHAPTER 57
  63. CHAPTER 58
  64. CHAPTER 59
  65. CHAPTER 60
  66. CHAPTER 61
  67. CHAPTER 62
  68. CHAPTER 63
  69. EPILOGUE
  70. CHAPTER 1
  71. A Note from the Author
  72. Acknowledgments
  73. Discussion Questions
  74. About the Author

On the day of the performance, Miriam vibrated with nerves and excitement as she took her place on stage to warm up. The audience was enormous, as if every prisoner in camp had come. Minutes before the concert began, the front row filled with Nazi soldiers, including an official in the uniform of the dreaded SS. “Who is that man?” Miriam whispered to the violinist beside her.

“That’s Obersturmführer Gemmeker, the camp Kommandant.” Miriam’s lungs squeezed like a fist. “Are you all right?” the violinist asked.

“No . . . I can’t . . .” Miriam rose and staggered off the stage, nearly bowling into the conductor. He grabbed her to steady her, halting her flight.

“Miriam, what’s wrong? Is it stage fright? Listen, you don’t need to —”

“It isn’t that,” she said, her lungs wheezing. “The Kommandant . . . and the Nazis . . . I didn’t know they would be here! I can’t play for them!”

He led her to a chair and made her sit. She was afraid he would be angry with her, but he seemed more worried than angry. “If you don’t perform, they’ll call your name on Tuesday.”

Her stomach rolled. She drew a few breaths, still struggling for air. “My music comes from my soul. I can’t . . . I can’t bare my soul to them. They’ve already taken every other part of me. This is all I have left!”

He looked at her for a long moment, pity and sorrow in his dark eyes. “You’re not performing for them. You’re offering your talent as a gift to your fellow prisoners. This camp is such a dark, despairing place. Our music helps restore memories of happier times and brings an hour or two of joy, a smile, hope.”

“But it’s false hope. The Nazis’ presence reminds us that we’re prisoners and that there is no hope!”

He crouched in front of her. “You’re wrong, Miriam. You’ve seen the propaganda that the Nazis spew out about us, saying that we’re an inferior race, portraying us as less than human. When faced with their cruel treatment here day after day, we begin to believe those lies and lose our dignity as human beings. But each time our orchestra performs, each time beautiful, glorious music flows from our instruments and from our God-given abilities, we’re slapping the Nazis in the face, proving that they’re wrong about us. They may treat us like animals, but animals don’t work together the way an orchestra does to create sound and beauty. The beaten-down souls in our audience sit up a little straighter when they hear us perform, because they are reminded of the beauty that’s inside each of them. You’re baring your soul, Miriam, to help restore their dignity.”