Back When the World Was Ours
Chapters (79)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. A NOTE FROM THE AUTHOR
  4. CONTENT WARNING
  5. 1936
  6. LEO
  7. ELSA
  8. MAX
  9. LEO
  10. ELSA
  11. MAX
  12. 1937
  13. ELSA
  14. MAX
  15. LEO
  16. EARLY 1938
  17. ELSA
  18. MAX
  19. LEO
  20. MAX
  21. LEO
  22. MAX
  23. LATE 1938
  24. ELSA
  25. MAX
  26. LEO
  27. ELSA
  28. MAX
  29. LEO
  30. 1939
  31. ELSA
  32. LEO
  33. MAX
  34. LEO
  35. ELSA
  36. LEO
  37. ELSA
  38. LEO
  39. ELSA
  40. LEO
  41. 1940
  42. MAX
  43. ELSA
  44. LEO
  45. 1941
  46. ELSA
  47. LEO
  48. ELSA
  49. MAX
  50. ELSA
  51. 1942
  52. MAX
  53. LEO
  54. ELSA
  55. 1943
  56. LEO
  57. MAX
  58. ELSA
  59. MAX
  60. ELSA
  61. 1944
  62. LEO
  63. ELSA
  64. MAX
  65. ELSA
  66. MAX
  67. ELSA
  68. MAX
  69. ELSA
  70. MAX
  71. LEO
  72. PAPA
  73. 1945
  74. LEO
  75. 2021
  76. LEO
  77. ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS
  78. A list of resources and further reading
  79. About the Author

The guard behind the table gives me a sharp nod. ‘Close it. You are done,’ he says before moving on to check Otto’s bag.

I close my bag and turn to see where Mutti and Vati are up to. In front of them on the table, Mutti’s wedding ring and Vati’s gold watch sit next to each other. The guard grabs them and drops them in a box by his side. ‘Go,’ he says to my parents.

Wordlessly, they close their bags and turn away from the table. The four of us shuffle into the crowd as the next group line up to hand over their last remaining valuables.

We are directed towards the train station by the guards. I look for Greta in the crowds. We’ve become separated and a tiny sliver of panic starts to creep into my chest until I spot her, near the platform. A large train is waiting and people are being shoved and pushed into carriages.

There she is! Standing outside one of the carriages with her parents. ‘Greta! Wait for me!’ I shout.

She turns and sees me but, a second later, a guard pushes her forward and she is forced to get into the carriage.

I pull on Mutti’s sleeve. ‘Hurry, please. We must get into the same carriage as Greta.’

‘Okay, we’ll try,’ Mutti replies, but there are still too many people in front of us and we are pushed on to the next one instead.

Mutti grips my hand. ‘You’ll see her when we get there,’ she says. ‘Let’s stay together for now.’

She’s doing that thing she does so often nowadays: trying to sound calm and normal, but I know she feels far from either. I hear the quiver that runs through every word, and I know not to argue. Instead I squeeze her hand, and keep hold of it.

‘Where are we going, anyway?’ Otto asks. ‘Why won’t they tell us?’

One of the guards overhears him and flashes a cold smile in our direction. ‘You have nothing to worry about,’ he says. ‘You’re being taken somewhere safe to keep you away from the stresses of war.’

‘Where?’ a brave man shouts. ‘Where is this safe place you are taking us?’

For a moment, there is silence as everyone in the carriage holds their breath, waiting to see what will happen. Will this man be taken out and beaten for daring to question the guards? Or will we actually get an answer?

It seems he is in luck, and so are we, as the guard smiles and answers mildly. ‘It is a nice place. A new ghetto especially for you lucky Jews. It’s called Theresienstadt. You will be happy there. You will like it. We will look after you there.’

I remember what the man from the Jewish Council said last night. Is it true? Are they helping us?