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Chapters (79)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. A NOTE FROM THE AUTHOR
  4. CONTENT WARNING
  5. 1936
  6. LEO
  7. ELSA
  8. MAX
  9. LEO
  10. ELSA
  11. MAX
  12. 1937
  13. ELSA
  14. MAX
  15. LEO
  16. EARLY 1938
  17. ELSA
  18. MAX
  19. LEO
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  21. LEO
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  23. LATE 1938
  24. ELSA
  25. MAX
  26. LEO
  27. ELSA
  28. MAX
  29. LEO
  30. 1939
  31. ELSA
  32. LEO
  33. MAX
  34. LEO
  35. ELSA
  36. LEO
  37. ELSA
  38. LEO
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  40. LEO
  41. 1940
  42. MAX
  43. ELSA
  44. LEO
  45. 1941
  46. ELSA
  47. LEO
  48. ELSA
  49. MAX
  50. ELSA
  51. 1942
  52. MAX
  53. LEO
  54. ELSA
  55. 1943
  56. LEO
  57. MAX
  58. ELSA
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  60. ELSA
  61. 1944
  62. LEO
  63. ELSA
  64. MAX
  65. ELSA
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  67. ELSA
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  69. ELSA
  70. MAX
  71. LEO
  72. PAPA
  73. 1945
  74. LEO
  75. 2021
  76. LEO
  77. ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS
  78. A list of resources and further reading
  79. About the Author

But he knew one thing: he would do all he could possibly do to make sure he was always the one who got to make the decisions in this game.

There was no way he would ever be the filthy Jew.

ELSA

‘Come on, come on, we haven’t got all day.’

The soldiers shout and curse at us as we file out of our buildings and into the street. There must be over a thousand of us: old, young, couples, families. It’s not a military operation, but the guards are acting as if it should be.

We are soon squashed together so tightly we have to coordinate our movements with each other to make any progress. An elderly couple in front of me are shuffling along so slowly that a woman behind me keeps walking into me and catching my heels with her case.

‘I’m sorry, I’m sorry,’ she says.

‘It’s fine. Honestly, don’t worry,’ Mutti says to her on my behalf. I’m too busy looking down at my feet concentrating on my next step to be able to turn around and speak to her myself.

We are approaching the edge of our small neighbourhood. We haven’t been allowed past this point for months now. As we near the corner to the outside world, a guard is screaming at everyone who passes. ‘Get back in line! Turn left! Pick your feet up! Keep moving!’

To underline his orders, he uses the end of his rifle to prod people as they come past him. I am terrified he will point his rifle at me, so I double my speed, even if it means I am shoving the old couple in front of me.

We get past the guard without incident. And then we are in a wide street. Mutti, Vati, Otto and I, a line of four in amongst the thousand other ragged, dirty, tired, confused people shuffling along beside us.

Otto is holding on to his leg. His limp has been worse than ever recently.

‘Are you all right?’ I ask him.

He nods. ‘I’m fine. Honestly.’ He gives me a weak smile.

‘Lean on me if you need to, okay?’

‘I will.’

Just then I hear a familiar voice. ‘Elsa!’ I spin round to see Greta turning the corner and coming out on to the street. She grabs her mother’s arm and drags her parents over to join us. As soon as she is beside me, we clutch hands and a tiny bit of my fear melts away. As long as I have my best friend beside me, I will be all right.

‘Did you feed Felix?’ I ask her.

Greta nods. ‘He came to our apartment before the sun was up. I think he must have known we were leaving. I gave him half my dinner from last night. I’d been saving it for him.’

‘I can’t believe we have to leave him,’ I say.