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Chapters (79)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. A NOTE FROM THE AUTHOR
  4. CONTENT WARNING
  5. 1936
  6. LEO
  7. ELSA
  8. MAX
  9. LEO
  10. ELSA
  11. MAX
  12. 1937
  13. ELSA
  14. MAX
  15. LEO
  16. EARLY 1938
  17. ELSA
  18. MAX
  19. LEO
  20. MAX
  21. LEO
  22. MAX
  23. LATE 1938
  24. ELSA
  25. MAX
  26. LEO
  27. ELSA
  28. MAX
  29. LEO
  30. 1939
  31. ELSA
  32. LEO
  33. MAX
  34. LEO
  35. ELSA
  36. LEO
  37. ELSA
  38. LEO
  39. ELSA
  40. LEO
  41. 1940
  42. MAX
  43. ELSA
  44. LEO
  45. 1941
  46. ELSA
  47. LEO
  48. ELSA
  49. MAX
  50. ELSA
  51. 1942
  52. MAX
  53. LEO
  54. ELSA
  55. 1943
  56. LEO
  57. MAX
  58. ELSA
  59. MAX
  60. ELSA
  61. 1944
  62. LEO
  63. ELSA
  64. MAX
  65. ELSA
  66. MAX
  67. ELSA
  68. MAX
  69. ELSA
  70. MAX
  71. LEO
  72. PAPA
  73. 1945
  74. LEO
  75. 2021
  76. LEO
  77. ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS
  78. A list of resources and further reading
  79. About the Author

‘Attaboy!’ Rolf patted Max on the back and returned his smile. The camaraderie melted Max’s thoughts and he felt his body relax. He was one of them again.

Rolf shouted to Karl. ‘You all right to hang on here for a bit longer before Max takes over?’ he asked.

‘My wife’s cooking my favourite dinner!’ Karl complained.

‘Ah, come on. We won’t be too long. It’s a treat for Max’s birthday.’

‘Okay. But I need to be gone in the next fifteen minutes.’

Rolf waved a hand. ‘That’ll be plenty of time,’ he said.

Max and Rolf walked together to Block 11 at the far end of the camp where another guard, Thomas, was waiting to join them in the courtyard.

Max had never been to Block 11 before, but he knew what happened here.

He forced his legs to march and not betray him by shaking noticeably. He forced his heart rate to slow and his palms to stay dry. And he forced his mind to draw a veil across the thought of what they were about to do.

Instead, he reminded himself how lucky he was to be here at all. This was his chance to take another step closer to the heart of the regime; another opportunity to serve Hitler.

And Max knew one thing for sure: there was no greater honour than that.

ELSA

It’s late in the day when they come. It isn’t even a surprise. I know how it works here. I have known all day that I would be under suspicion. It doesn’t matter that I wasn’t part of the plan, that I didn’t even know of it till this morning.

All that matters is association; retribution; punishment.

A year ago, I wouldn’t have believed any of this could be possible. A week ago, I would have fought it. Even a day ago, when I still had Greta, a tiny beating pulse in a hidden corner of my heart would have urged me to resist.

But now? Now I have nothing. I am an empty vessel. They will gain nothing from me, and they cannot take anything from me. There is nothing to take.

So I let them drag me out of the barracks. I walk between them along the wide path in between these hated buildings.

I know this is my death march.

The thought brings relief.

I will never again stand here to call out my number.

I will never hold a dirty bowl in my hands, bracing myself to swallow the thin gruel it contains because it is all I will get to eat that day.

I will never crouch over a dirty puddle, slopping its contents into my mouth because the instinct to avoid the horrors of dehydration pulls at me harder than the fear of disease.