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Chapters (79)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. A NOTE FROM THE AUTHOR
  4. CONTENT WARNING
  5. 1936
  6. LEO
  7. ELSA
  8. MAX
  9. LEO
  10. ELSA
  11. MAX
  12. 1937
  13. ELSA
  14. MAX
  15. LEO
  16. EARLY 1938
  17. ELSA
  18. MAX
  19. LEO
  20. MAX
  21. LEO
  22. MAX
  23. LATE 1938
  24. ELSA
  25. MAX
  26. LEO
  27. ELSA
  28. MAX
  29. LEO
  30. 1939
  31. ELSA
  32. LEO
  33. MAX
  34. LEO
  35. ELSA
  36. LEO
  37. ELSA
  38. LEO
  39. ELSA
  40. LEO
  41. 1940
  42. MAX
  43. ELSA
  44. LEO
  45. 1941
  46. ELSA
  47. LEO
  48. ELSA
  49. MAX
  50. ELSA
  51. 1942
  52. MAX
  53. LEO
  54. ELSA
  55. 1943
  56. LEO
  57. MAX
  58. ELSA
  59. MAX
  60. ELSA
  61. 1944
  62. LEO
  63. ELSA
  64. MAX
  65. ELSA
  66. MAX
  67. ELSA
  68. MAX
  69. ELSA
  70. MAX
  71. LEO
  72. PAPA
  73. 1945
  74. LEO
  75. 2021
  76. LEO
  77. ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS
  78. A list of resources and further reading
  79. About the Author

An SS guard has come to join the others in front of us. He whispers something to the two guards already there. One of them bends his head forward to listen. Then he nods sharply. Both soldiers click their heels together and give their ‘Heil Hitler!’ salutes.

Then the guard who has just joined the others unfolds a piece of paper and turns to us. ‘The following numbers, come forward!’ he shouts.

A sudden premonition grips my stomach, filling me with terror as women step forward. Even before he calls out Greta’s number.

No. No!

I watch my friend raise her shoulders, lift her chin, straighten her back. I watch, as if through a mist, as she walks through the crowd to the front. I watch one guard take hold of her while another kicks her in the stomach.

And then I cannot watch any more. I cannot listen. I cannot comprehend. My small act of rebellion is that I refuse to believe what is happening in front of my eyes.

And then it is over.

She is gone. And my last shred of belief – in humanity, redemption, survival, in anything – all of it has gone with her.

Eventually, they dismiss us. I cannot walk. I have nowhere to go. I have nothing to hold me in place. The anchor that connects me to the world has gone.

A woman from my barracks takes my arm. ‘Come, Elsa,’ she says. Her voice is warm but I cannot be comforted.

I am the walking dead.

MAX

Max started his work shift late in the day. As always, he felt a swell of pride as he marched through the gates and looked up at the words over them: Arbeit Macht Frei.

Work certainly had made him free. So much so that he didn’t even mind working on his birthday. What better way to serve Hitler than to show commitment like that?

He headed for the quarter that he had started patrolling recently. At first, he’d worked in the offices, helping out with whatever was required of him, dealing with paperwork, even making drinks for the officers. Recently, his father had managed to get him posted to perimeter duty. He liked the feeling of importance it gave him, and the fact that he had to be alert and ready at all times.

Max listened as Karl, the guard he was taking over from, caught him up on the day’s events before handing over to him. There had been some trouble with a couple of the women. They’d been hatching a plan to escape. Luckily, they’d been caught and dealt with.

They wouldn’t be any more trouble.

Max and Karl faced each other to give their ‘Heil Hitler!’ salutes and Karl started to move away as Max prepared himself to take up position.

Rolf, another guard Max was friendly with, was calling to him from across the path. ‘Hey, birthday boy,’ he said.